I Am No One - Rey's Story (Star Wars - Episode VII)

Chapter 6 - The Girl With the Blue Lightsaber

"NO!" I scream from the top of my lungs. I can't hear anything except from that monster's whisper. Thank you. I cry with real sobs. It's the most I ever cried before, the most I ever hurt. Not even when my parents left I cried so bad. It's like I can feel Han's pain in my chest, something impaled right into my heart like a stiff needle of pain. I can't even think of Han's facial expression right now. He must be heartbroken. His own son killed him.

If I didn't like Kylo then, now I despise him. He isn't worthy of anything but pain. How could he? After all Han has done for him, he repays him by killing him. My mind can't comprehend the image in front of my eyes and I feel like I might collapse at any point now. I was hurting before, but this was the last drop that filled the glass of water and I surrender. I can't accept this. It's like I can't breathe and I gasp rapidly, but nothing happens. The air was sucked out of my lungs and I'm left with only pain and sorrow. It wasn't supposed to be this way.

"No." I whisper between my gasps. He was supposed to leave this planet with me. Another gasp. He was supposed to teach me his ways in flying. Another pain in my chest. When this was all over, I wanted to tell him that I want to be part of his crew. Another set of tears falls.

I should've screamed at him to fall back when I had the chance. Damn, I could have saved him. I knew what Ren was about to do, but for Han's sake and maybe future happiness, I let him be. And it got him destroyed. How foolish I was!

With violence, Ren pulls the saber out of Han's chest and he flinches. He barely stands on two feet. Han raises his hand slowly and reaches for his chin and he places it there, a last tender touch of his son before he falls into the emptiness.

I feel numb. I can't do anything. I can't say anything between the sobs and I wish I could. I wish I could scream 'You're a monster!' right in his face. I wish I could take his crimson lightsaber and impale him the same way he impaled Han. I wish he could feel my pain and I wish I could destroy him like he destroyed his father and me. Heartbroken is the only word that can be considered close to what I feel. But it's beyond that. The only father figure I ever had, gone. And all because of his son, a cruel beast with no heart. How can someone so pure have a child who's so broken? As a child, your parents gave you your life. And you repay them by murdering them? How can a person be so sick to do that? And worse, how can you feel no emotion after?

But he does show a hint of sadness in his eyes. Something I've never seen there before. He regrets it. He must've hated his father so bad. But even I, who went through something much worse, wouldn't kill my parents if they ever returned because maybe they had a good reason. Ren didn't even let him explain himself. Perhaps everything would've turned out different if Ren had only listened to what his father had to say, but his anger got in the way.

Chewie lets out a mournful growl before swinging his bow caster and shooting. The laser hits Ren in the side of his abdomen and he grunts hard from the pain. The shot is not deadly, it can be healed, but I wish that laser hit him in his heart so he can die in the same place where he killed his own blood. Because he deserves it.

Chewie's shot acknowledged the stormtroopers of his presence and they start shooting towards him. With all my power, I raise my gun and I start shooting towards the stormtroopers. Chewie can't die as well. He's the only thing I have left from Han. I'm not planning on letting him slip out of my grasp, too.

Finn joins me and together we take down some of them. And before I realize it, an explosion happens beneath me, colors of white and yellow and orange invading my eyes. I yelp and I step back, almost tripping over Finn. I thought they didn't have time to place the bombs. I was wrong again. But at what cost? Only for Han to get killed?