MY INNOCENCE 🌸 || p.jm ✔︎

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Elle

I was sitting in the living room, watching cartoons with Jiminaa, until she fell asleep in my arms. Being with her and playing with her, makes me think about having a child of my own.. but it's still sort of earlier for me so I think I'm going to wait a little while longer.

Speaking of whiles... Jungkook has been gone for an awful long time and I hope nothing bad has happened with his.. job and all. I keep wanting to bring that conversation up about him possibly finding something less danger to do with his skills but I never know how and Angel always vents to me about hers and Jimin's arguments regarding that and I really want to stay in my happy phase with Jungkook as long as possible.

Gosh he's really been gone for a long time... suddenly I heard the front door bell and I get up, thinking that might be him but why would he ring the doorbell. I peep through the peephole, see Shownu backside and he stands with his hands in his pockets. I shift Jiminaa to my other shoulder as I open the door.

"Shownu?" He turns around.

"What are you doing here..? It's almost midnight."

"I need to talk to you." I nodded, opening the door a little bit wider so he can come through. "Um.. do you mind putting Jiminaa down somewhere." I nodded once again, furrowing my eyebrows at his bothered tone. I placed Jiminaa in my bedroom, laying her on top of her blankets before rejoining Shownu downstairs.

"Is everything alright?"

"No Ellie.. it isn't." He rubbed his face whilst pacing a little bit. "Angel was shoot and she needs a heart transplant. Without it she'll die in eight days." My heart clenched inside my chest as tears burned my eyes.

"No.. no that's.. that's not.. not h- oh my God! Does Jimin know about this?" I asked holding my now fragile heart.

"He wants to be the donor..." my eyes widened as I looked up at him.

"He can't! That'll crush her.. oh my God." I ran my fingers through my hair as the tears just slipped out.

"I need to get up there!" But then I thought about it.. I can't take Jiminaa up there. "FUCK!" I whispered yelled. "This... this can't be real."

"Anger and pain is consuming Jimin right now and he's not in his right mind.. he can't be a donor.. he isn't a match." Shownu informed me.

"Wh- how do you know?"

"A couple years back, they fought this late organization, of course they won that fight but Angel started to hemorrhage. Jimin tried to give blood but he wasn't a match so they ultimately had to tell her parents because her mother was a match, and she gave. But there was one other person who got tested at the time and was a match."

"Who?"

"Me."

"Sh- Shownu no.. what are you saying?"

"Angel can't lose both parents.. she can't lose Jimin.. I-

"And she can't lose you, are you insane!?" I cut him off. "Are you seriously thinking about donating?"

"I have to, Elle, she'll die."

"What if something goes wrong!? Then I lose you both, the four of us huh!? You can't go around making hasty decisions like that Shownu damn!" I ranted. But bottom line is, he's right. She has eight days to live and a donor isn't just going to pop up.. I have to accept his decision no matter how bad it hurts. I stared at him for a while before storming towards him and embracing him tightly.

"I love you so much Hyunwoo." I mumbled into his chest.

"I love you too, Elle." He breathed out. I had no idea what was going through his mind, was he scared, confident, what?