I Want To Love You

Chapter Five

Chapter Five

The next two weeks went by painfully slow, and Sasuke found himself avoiding Naruto and the group at all costs. He ignored Naruto’s constant texts asking where he was or if he wanted to hangout and he even went as far as skipping Chemistry so he didn’t have to see him. Naruto even came to his apartment to make sure he was okay, Sasuke recalled the first night it happened. It was two days after the incident at the bar and it was around eleven at night. He was curled up in bed, thinking about the blonde. I’m so stupid… God I’m just so stupid. He thought. I should’ve known trying to make friends would end up this way… At least I’m ending it before I get in too deep. He couldn’t help but cry as he lay in bed, he couldn’t believe so much had happened in only a few weeks. That’s when it happened, he heard knocking on his door. He ignored it, and the knocking sounded again. “Hey… It’s me, Naruto. I guess you’re either asleep or you’re avoiding me. I.. I’m not sure what I did, but I want you to know that whatever it was I’m sorry.” he paused. “I…” What was that sound? Sasuke thought. Is he.. is Naruto crying? “It’s weird but for some reason I feel really drawn to you. As soon as we became friends, I just felt so close to you.” Naruto forced a laugh and sniffed, “I know it’s stupid.. I bet you’re thinking ‘how can you feel close to someone you barely know?’ and you know.. I honestly can’t answer that. I just really wish you would talk to me.” Naruto laughed a little, “Here I am, pouring my heart out and you’re probably asleep or something. Well.. I’ll talk to you later.” and he heard Naruto leave. Sasuke couldn’t help but tear up from Naruto’s speech, and though part of him wanted to make up with him and admit how ridiculous he was being, he just couldn’t. He convinced himself that it was better this way, that he was meant to be alone and deepening his friendship with anyone would only lead to more heartbreak later.

That was only two days after the trip to the bar, and now it had been two weeks. The texts weren’t as frequent and Naruto hadn’t visited his apartment in at least five days. He’s finally giving up Sasuke thought, partially relieved and partially sad. He sighed, it was 5 p.m. on a Saturday. He could be having fun and yet here he was. I guess I’ll go buy some groceries, I’m running out of food anyway. He forced himself to get off his couch and walked to the store.

“Are you sure that’s a good idea?” Naruto asked Kiba, they were parked outside of Sasuke’s apartment. “Well, if talking to him will make you shut up then I’m all for it.” Kiba answered. Naruto shoved Kiba playfully, “Wow you’re so nice!” and then got serious again, “But seriously Kiba, I don’t think breaking into his house and waiting for him to come home is a proper way to force him to talk to me.” Kiba shrugged, “Well nothing else is working and at least this way he’ll have to talk to you.” Naruto nodded half-agreeing, “Yeah, or he’ll call the police.” Kiba shoved Naruto this time, “Come on I didn’t drive here for nothing. Stop being a pussy and just do it.” Naruto sighed, getting out of the car, “Thanks Kiba, I’ll call you when I need you to pick me up.”

Sasuke sighed. I really need to invest in a car he thought. Carrying groceries home from the store was not the most fun thing in the world, thankfully he had finally reached his apartment door. He set the groceries down temporarily to unlock his door but remembered he didn’t even lock it in the first place. Maybe I should start locking it. He thought and opened his door. He set the groceries down in the kitchen and started to put everything up. “Um… Hey..” a voice said behind him. Sasuke dropped the box of cereal he was holding, “What the hell are you doing in my house?!” Sasuke exclaimed. He was both shocked and really pissed off. “You can’t just break into people’s houses! What is wrong with you? I could’ve had a heart attack!” he continued yelling. Naruto awkwardly laughed and scratched his head, “I.. well.. I know that it’s a little extreme but I just want to talk to you.” Sasuke looked at him, “Can’t you take a hint? I don’t want to talk to you!” He retorted, angrily picking up the box of cereal and placing it in the cabinet. “Yeah, I kinda got that. But don’t you think I deserve an explanation?!” Naruto said after a minute.

“Don’t you think I deserve to be happy?” Sasuke yelled back. “And you think this is making you happy?!” Naruto asked. “You don’t know anything about me!”

“Probably because you won’t tell me!”

“It’s none of your business”

“I thought we were friends..”

“I thought we could be but I’m just gonna get hurt in the end so why even bother?”

“It doesn’t have to be that way… just tell me what I did.”

Sasuke looked away. He felt sort of guilty, it wasn’t Naruto’s fault that he liked him. “It’s nothing.” He said finally. Naruto walked closer to him, grabbing his arm, “You can tell me,” he said softly. Sasuke shook his head, “I can’t.. sorry.” and turned to put the rest of his groceries up. “You can, damnit!” Naruto said, grabbing the collar of Sasuke’s shirt. “Just leave me alone!” Sasuke yelled, grabbing Naruto’s arm and pulling him off, and pushing him up against the wall. Naruto looked up at him, “I will once you tell me what the hell I did! All I did was try to be your fucking friend.”

Sasuke clenched his jaw, “Well maybe I don’t want you to be my friend!” Naruto sighed, “Then what do you want?!” Sasuke just looked at Naruto, and before he could stop himself he whispered softly, “I want you…” Naruto locked eyes with Sasuke, blushing. He had to admit, the way he felt about Sasuke he had never felt about anyone else, but did he like him? Sasuke leaned down and kissed him. Naruto’s heart sped up, he didn’t know what to do. But he kissed him back, slowly. It felt so different.. Sasuke deepened the kiss and Naruto wrapped his arms around him. Sasuke ran his hands through Naruto’s soft blonde locks, slightly tugging on them. After a few minutes, Naruto pulled away. “I… I don’t know.. I’ve never been with a guy.” He said. Sasuke let go of him, “I haven’t either.. but we could try?” He asked, hopeful. Naruto looked away. I.. I’m into girls. he assured himself. Maybe I could try? God.. I don’t know. “I’m not sure Sasuke.. I don’t know if I could do it.” Sasuke looked disappointed but he understood where the blonde was coming from. “I know…”

Naruto hated how sad Sasuke looked, and he wanted to make him happy. He knew what it was like to feel sad and lost and not have anyone. After a few minutes he said, “I-I could try.. But we would have to keep it between us.” Sasuke smiled, although he felt a bit upset that it had to be a secret, “Alright.” Naruto was happy Sasuke was smiling again, “But listen, I don’t know if this will work and I can’t promise I will be able to love you, but I want to love you.” Sasuke’s smile faded, but only for a second, “I know. And that’s all I can ask from you.” Naruto smiled, “Now stop being so gloomy, everythings okay right?” Sasuke nodded. Naruto opened Sasuke’s fridge. “What are you doing?” He asked the blonde. Naruto smirked, picking up a bottle of whipped cream. He popped the lid off and started spraying Sasuke with it. “Hahaha you’re covered in whipped cream!” Naruto laughed.

Sasuke fake pouted, “You’re mean.” Naruto smirked, “Aww, poor Sasuke!” Sasuke rolled his eyes and started walking towards the blonde, “Come give me a hug.” he said laughing. Naruto shook his head, “Nope, nope stay away!!” He laughed, running from Sasuke. Eventually Sasuke caught up to Naruto and wrapped his arms around him, covering him in whipped cream. Naruto laughed and licked some whipped cream off Sasuke’s cheek. Sasuke laughed too, “Idiot.” he said rolling his eyes. I really hope this wasn’t a mistake. Sasuke thought, but he couldn’t really be sad during a moment like this. Here he was, with his new best friend/secret boyfriend, covered in whipped cream and laughing stupidly.

“Hey, Naruto?” Sasuke said after a minute of silence. “Yeah?” He answered. “I’m

really glad I met you.” He said honestly. Naruto smiled, “I’m glad I met you too.” Sasuke

smiled back, “Well it looks like I have a big mess to clean up now.” He said. “I’ll clean

you off” Naruto winked. Sasuke shoved him, “You can help me clean my house instead.”

Naruto groaned, “Awww, that sounds a lot less fun.” Sasuke shrugged, “Well, you

shouldn’t have made such a mess.” Naruto pouted, “Alright… let’s get to work.”