I Want To Love You

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Eleven

Deidara watched as other shoppers passed by him, shuffling around and looking for gifts. Gifts. That’s what he was supposed to be doing right now, buying a gift for his boyfriend. He finally snapped out of his paralysis and decided he should find Naruto. He walked in a daze, thoughts clouding everything around him. Itachi was here, Itachi had just spoken to him only moments ago. It had been what, five years since he had last saw him? Why? What were his real intentions for being here? Deidara wasn’t sure how to feel, he had just seen the boy he had once loved years ago. The last time he saw him, he was a quiet, intelligent boy who loved spending time with his brother and Dei. Itachi was always smiling and laughing along with them, but sometimes when Dei was alone with him he was completely silent and had a blank stare on his face. He was so mysterious, Deidara never knew that was going on in Itachi’s head. It was sad, watching someone he once loved turn into a criminal, a murderer. Sasuke use to be a kid who always smiled and laughed, and now he has become sad and quiet. He does laugh and smile sometimes, but as soon as everything is silent he gets this look in his eyes. He looks so sad, and lost… and alone. In a way, it reminded him of the way Itachi use to look when he was alone with him. Itachi never talked about his feelings, he never told me his problems. Sasuke is a lot like his brother.

Sasuke. What do I tell Sasuke? Deidara thought. I can’t tell him.. it would be the last straw. It would break him, even more than he already was. Just when his life was finally coming together, Itachi came back to break it all again. “Hey, what took you so long?” Naruto said when Deidara finally found him. He had no idea how long he had been wandering aimlessly through the aisles of the mall. “Sorry, I guess I got lost.” he answered lamely. Naruto raised an eyebrow but didn’t comment. A few seconds later he said, “So, who was that guy?” Deidara’s blood ran cold. Fuck, he saw him.. I just hope he doesn’t mention this to Sasuke. Deidara though. “Oh, just an old friend.” Naruto nodded, “You seem a little shaken up, are you okay?” Deidara forced a smile, “Yeah, I’m just fine. Just thinking about what to get Sasori.” Naruto smiled, “Oh yeah! You still have to get his present! What are you gonna get him?” he exclaimed loudly. Some shoppers that were passing by the two turned around. “Will you be quiet?! People are staring!” Deidara yelled. I feel like Sasori, he’s always telling me to be quiet. Deidara thought. “Me?! You’re yelling too! Louder at that!” Naruto argued. Deidara rolled his eyes, “You started it!” Naruto crossed his arms, “Wow what are we? 3?” Deidara narrowed his eyes at Naruto and then burst out laughing. Naruto gave him a confused look, “What are you laughing about??” Deidara kept laughing and had to catch his breath, “It’s just funny how serious you look when you’re arguing. It’s hard to take you seriously.”

Naruto gave Deidara a look and turned away from him, “Whatever, when can we leave anyway? I feel like we’ve been here for hours.” Deidara sighed, “You can wait in the car if you want, I just have to pick up a few things and pay for them.” he pulled out his keys and tossed them at Naruto who clumsily caught them, “Here, you might at well try to get it started and warmed up. It’ll take a few minutes.” Naruto groaned and muttered, “Your car is the worst.” and headed towards the exit. Deidara took his time picking the few art supplies out, he found them pretty quickly. He spent a good ten minutes waiting in line and finally paid for the items. I really hope Naruto got the car started he thought. He stepped outside and cursed the freezing wind. He looked both ways and proceeded to cross the parking lot to get to the car. It was completely packed and he was ready to get out of there.

“Hey! Watch where you’re going!” Deidara yelled as a car almost hit him. I almost wish it did hit me, at least then I wouldn’t be able to focus on how cold I was he thought. He finally got to his falling apart car only to see Naruto still struggling to start the dang thing. “Ugh, are you serious? You still haven’t got it started?” Deidara groaned. “Hey, don’t blame me. It’s not my fault your car is a piece of crap.” Naruto retorted. Deidara set the bag of art supplies down in the back and motioned for Naruto to move so he could start the car. He grabbed the key and inserted it into the key hole, he turned and it sounded like it was trying to start but failed. “Huh.. this is weird.” Deidara said. Naruto furrowed his eyebrows, “What?” Deidara tried again, getting the same result. “Normally it does this but do you hear that?” Deidara said, trying to start it again. “Something sounds wrong.” Naruto nodded, “Check the hood.” Deidara sighed, tired of dealing with the cold weather.