Thug Fantasies ⏳🖤

soul ties

Deep down I'm hurt because the only boy I've ever loved betrayed me for no reason. The female that i spent most of my days with snaked me in the most trifling ways. I should have caught on when she tried to make Klyde influence Dane to break up with me by telling him i cheated on him. I mean All i ever was, was loyal to those people. Ian never stir up strife or nothing. I have a good heart and always will.. i don't hold onto the past so i let it go.
That situation bought me and Jam very close because that hurt exposed me and i needed somebody there for me. Knowing Jam, she's real, she been rocking with me for a while now so she become my best bitch.

In October Dane texted my phone and told me happy birthday. I'm like that's weird..what would he be nice to me for after all the pain he caused me? I guess it was the glow that had him wanting me back. I mean my vibe is real asf & he had soul ties with me, no matter how many bitches he'll fuck, they won't have that same affect on him because of who i am. So throughout the days I'll see him and he would be looking at me, he would stare at me and I'd look at him but we'd never say anything to each other.

But>>>

me & jam kickin it, it's around December now, we vibing at school, around each other 25/8..she comes to my house, i go to her house, we vibe on some real shit. I love her and she loves me..

I had done hit a fucknigga free glow. I had my orange closure bundles in, wearing lashes. frontals & all.

—-It was Christmas break
One day in December, around Christmas Dane followed me on Instagram and I'm like hollon?? Why he tryna get my attention? I tell Jam first quarter and she like omg ion know why.. i ended up accepting him and following him back because i still love this dude. Real love ain't gone just fade away because that person did some fake shit. So after i followed him back he liked my pictures and my dumb ass liked his pictures back.
He texted me and was like "stop playing" i said Ian playing. He told me that he missed me..i told him i missed him too. Then i sent a disappearing photo that said "i wanna fuck again before the year out & weon gotta talk nomo" .
I was so bold, i mean yolo Shidd. So i did that & he was like "i was thinking the same thing" I'm like hmm okay well we can text up until then. So i text his number, i know the shit by heart. I'm like hey. He's like wassup. This nigga had done got a car for his birthday & shit so I'm like i see ya.
He told me to FaceTime him that night, so i did. We started back talking heavy asf.
Dane had an attitude with Jam because of what she told me about him and Naomi but why hide that kinda information from somebody? Ion give a fuck if they a stranger, ima let they ass know if sb pulling some snake shit behind their back. But anyways...
We on FaceTime and Jam said something and he like "tell her to stfu, ion like her" she could hear him & they went back and forth but since me and Dane was back right, it didn't make sense for them to hold a grudge. So they got back right..Jam did what was right and it was fuck his opinion.

Fast forward >> me and Jam has decided we should go to her sister house because we tryna see our niggas.
Nobody knew me and Dane started back to fw each other. But we knew what was up & that's ok.
But i had packed my shit, flat irons, lotion, deodorant, clothes, shorts, tanks, fits & shoes, anything that i could think of because we were going to be over there for a while. My brother drops us off over there and i speak to jams sister, this is practically our first time meeting. I put my stuff in the closet & etc. our other friend had came over there too, we gone call her "mattie" . So we all over there just chillin and shit. It's a 3/3 type thing, we loving the vibes.
The next day we was chillin and seen what we should do that night. We decided to go to the mall. I hopped out the spray and put on a colorful yarn tee, some light blue jeans and my blue & white 11's. So Jam called this boy (her homie) & asked could he slide us. So we headed for the mall high asf cause we smoked on the way there. We was walking through the mall & everybody's staring at us. We had went in this store and the lady was like "ouu i like your hair", i said thank you. She flipped up her bonnet and was like "look what this lady did to my hair", she showed us how the lace glue burned her skin & i couldn't take her serious so we innat bih cutting up. Laughing our ass off. Me and Jam looking at each other like "girl omg they fucked her up" but after that we chilled around the mall for bout an hour, i bought Dane some Lacoste joggers, we ate then we headed back home.
We stayed up a little bit, i was on ft with Dane then i bathed and went to sleep.
The next day Me and Dane concluded that we'd link tonight. So I'm like "okay".
Me and the girls had smoked that night & it eased my nervousness but i was still shy asf. i would've never thought he'd come back to me after all that he did. But it's the night of December 31st, New Years!! So you know we on some turnt shit. Mattie gone be with her boo & Jam gone be with her man & im finna head out with Dane in his new car. So we sitting out dea chillin under the pavilion by the mailboxes. They waiting outside with me until Dane pull up. I'm thinking he's not texting me back but my phone was on airplane mode the whole time. I was high trippin. I turned airplane mode off and he had been texting me. He told me "I'm here" and i was like okay. I had seen a car like his pull up and park but Ian know fa sho cause i was trippin. I tell Jam "I'm scared" she like "girl don't be shy, just go" so i went.. I walked down the slight hill to where he was parked and we was standing on the side of his car. He was talking to me, I'm just standing there high asf, he like "why yeen talking?" I was being mute cause I'm high asf & i had spotted a hicky on his neck. Mosquitoes were biting me so I'm like "let me get in this car that you done fucked everybody in" he said "ian fucked no everybody"
I get in the car, we in the back seat.. i told him i was hot so he turned on the AC. We talking & shit, he's high too. But yeah, i was throwing slick shots at him saying that he like to fuck sticks (referring to Naomi) .
He was staring at me, I'm like "stop staring at me" he said "i can look at you", i said "why?" He was like "cause you fine asf" it was a whole mood y'all.. so next we start being flirtatious, kissing and shit so i already know what's finna happen. He let the seats all the way up and was like people gone see us if he keep the car on cause the lights & shit. So he cut the car off and
I take off my shoes and pants, he does the same thing.