After we had linked up, he wouldn't text me back fast enough but I'd always text him back fast. At some point i tried to treat him how he treated me by texting him back however long he waited to text me back. He had asked me once like "why you texting me back late?" I said "because that's what you do to me" he was like "that don't be on purpose tho, i be busy" so I'm like whatever.
It's January, school has started back and I'm seeing him in the hallways like usual. I'm thinking to myself like "damn, i gotta do another 5 months of school with this nigga" but i sucked it up. I had to be a bad bitch. I couldn't let a nigga bring me down bad. So at school I'm having a good time, every time he sees me, I'm laughing, with my friends and vibing. I would truly be happy but i got a feeling when i knew he was around. Sometimes he'd catch me alone but i just be big chillin.
Deep down beyond the eyes I'm hurt but i asked for the shit. I went back till i couldn't no more. Life is it's own teacher and no matter what anyone said to me, i wasn't listening. I taught my own self about going back to the well till it's dried out. I didn't want that for myself anymore. For him to not treat me as my worth was unacceptable. So i gave up. Of course I'm feeling weird.
My first heartbreak.
I was another freshman girl that fell for the senior that all the girls wanted.
I had a huge crush on this dude for months. I wanted him and i got him.
God said sometimes you don't need what you want so be patient. I was 14, he was 16. I didn't know what i was getting myself into but i was willing to risk it all for the boy i thought i wanted and loved.
I gave it up to him and it was good while it lasted. Those seasons of my life taught me more than enough and I'm beyond thankful!
Now I'm a different person, my heart doesn't take bullshit. I can read through people's agendas, see when their intentions aren't pure, and so on. I'm closer to God now. Nights I've cried and cried because i wondered why me? He told me because I'm more than strong enough to withstand pressure. He did it all to better me. I seen the blessing in my circumstances even when i was at my lowest points. I asked God to heal me and to guide me where he wanted me to go, not where i wanted to go. I prayed for wisdom and a better understanding. God gave me the ability of discernment.
I'm glad i had to learn at a young age about people.
The valley is a learning experience. It's about how you use it. I used my hurt for the bettering of my wisdom.
I'm here to tell you. Whatever you're going through is a season in your life. You can use it to make or break yourself. Life is great Experience that becomes Knowledge when you use it for the good, but if you let circumstances consume you, you will become weaker than before.
Become stronger!
Never settle for less!
You're beautiful!
You're amazing!
If you have any questions or want any advice..feel free to dm me.
I LOVE ALL OF YOU !! #ferventlove #agapelove
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Любовные романыA girl named Diamond is in the senior year of middle school and she has a crush on the boy she loves. She makes her love known to him not knowing what kind of dude he is. He's a senior in high school. Will he break her heart or is he the one? Her b...
