Mr. no name kid| A lams book

Chapter 14

John's P.O.V.

i was in the car with francis AGAIN. we were on our way to the schuyler party. ugh. "you look sexy in all black, baby~" francis cooed. it was dark, so i couldnt see him. but i knew for a fact that he was smirking. he always is. ugh he is such a pervert. he only wants me sexually. he doesnt even want ME. he just wants a toy to play with. and that toy just turns out to be me. i know what your thinking

'john why dont you just break up with him?'

i cant. im scared. francis has.....friends. and not the friends he sits with at lunch. bad friends. and if francis cant have me, then he will do anything to stop anyone else from having me. he would even kill me. he has told me that multiple times. and im scared for my life. im also scared for alex's life too. i sighed as i looked out the window. the car ride was fairly silent. since i didnt have anything to say to francis anyways. 

i listened to the raindrops softly hit the window. it was drizzling outside. i normally dont like the rain, but today...it was nice. it was calming. so calming that i almost fell asleep until....

"john wake up. we're here" i groaned quietly and got out the car. here we go....

~time skip~

it was a normal high school party. under aged drinking, smoking, drugs, making out, and people...doing the nasty. i walked over to a couch and sat down, watching francis go off and talk to people. he eventually came back to the area i was in, and was flirting with a whole bunch of chicks. right in front of me. i wasnt jealous, it just hurt to see that i was just a toy to him. he only wanted me to satisfy his sexual needs. and i dont even satisfy him at all. he runs off with countless people. 

i looked in the kitchen and seen eliza sitting on  the table, making out with alex. i made my hands into tight fists. i was so caught up in jealousy and rage, that i didnt realize how hard i was squeezing. when they stopped kissing, they walked away somewhere, holding hands. i finally took my hands out of fists, and i seen marks on my hands. damn. my nails dug all the way into my skin. 

it didnt really bother me, cause i was used to physical pain cause of francis. i know its sad, but its true. i curled into a ball, and cried silently. i felt so alone...

i felt a hand on my shoulder. i lifted my head up to see francis. he leaned down and kissed me before speaking "whats the matter princess?" i wanted to gag. his breath reeked of alcohol. "im just not into these types of parties..." francis laughed "so what kind of parties are you into? a little kids party?" francis said teasingly. "that would be better than this party.." i said, running my hands through my hair. 

francis stood up and yelled "HEY GUYS! LITTLE JOHNNY OVER HERE THINKS A LITTLE KIDS PARTY WOULD BE BETTER THAN THIS!" the whole place went silent, except the music in the background. then, everyone errupted with laughter. i felt tears fill my eyes. everyone was...laughing at me....

i seen alex come into the room "HEY!" alex yelled, and everyone stopped laughing. someone even stopped the music. alex was clearly angry. his face was a bit red. "john has been here for everyone here. he goes out of his way to make everyone happy. and how do you repay him?! by laughing and humiliating him! none of you deserve john to be in your presence!" he was basically screaming at this point. 

i smiled a bit to myself. he cares about me. i felt my heart flutter. that feeling didnt last long though. Charles lee stood up, and walked over to alex "oh shut up, hamilton. nobody gives a shit." i rolled my eyes. lee was always talking junk about somebody. alex glared at him "lee, im already mad, so messing with me wouldnt be such a good idea." alex spat, looking lee right in the eyes. nobody seen what was coming next. lee punched alex in the face. everyone gasped.

OH HELL NO.

2/26/2020