A piece of Me.

Alive

There's this loop you see,
I try to escape
I succeed
But then,
I fall right back
I try not to
But somehow,
Some how it gets me
Every time.
No matter what
Whatever I do
Whenever I go

This avalanche
which starts with
a vulnerable moment
keeps rolling
and taking
despair
sadness
loneliness
anxiety
on its way
and hits me
with a force
ever so strong
that it buries me

so what do I do?
except for laying there
It doesn't kill me
but am I even alive
Was I alive to begin with