Saffron's therian Journal

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Ayyy I was wearing my tail outside today because I was feeling shifty and I was walking with my friend and we got no hassle going TO the shop, but as we were coming back, some girls went "OnLy AnImAls wEaR tAiLs!" And other things, but I didn't hear them. Lmao it was funny. Like sweetheart, I am an animal and your opinion isn't going to effect me 💜🤟🏻. No matter what, don't let any one make you feel invalid because of your identity, be yourself 💜.

I wrote this at crackhead hours don't judge me

Anyways, I seen someone with a tail and ears today!!! I'm guessing they were a furry but idk! My dad was actually the one who pointed it out to me.

Ive been thinking a lot and maybe in my past life as Ruth I died whilst sleeping. I don't know if that's true but I can see that happening idk. I can't literally see me dying ofc but that's what I think happened; so maybe that's why I have such a big fear of that now.

People also say, you died in a past life from what you fear now. That's what I think happened to me.

Same with my Canaan dog kintype I think I died from a tumour because I have a memory of me lying down on a vet bed with my owner holding my paw and seemingly crying so that's another theory.

Also! I've been having pinings to go spend more time in the forest and I thought for the longest time "oh it must be a new theriotype" but it's not! I realised as Ruth I lived in a forest and that's why I've been wanting to go back there and spend all my time there. Like it makes so much more sense! So I'm not a fox at all! Maybe fox hearted ya!

So, I'm feeling really shifty and it's good! Mainly because im listening to the song sober up by AJR and that describes my life as it is now, the start "Hello, hello, I'm not where I'm supposed to be, I hope that your missing me" that described me talking to my family and friends I had as Ruth.

I had a dream shift this morning, me being my Canaan self again drinking some milk from a silver dog bowl.

I don't really know what else to write :(