There will be one more 'Colors' part after this.
Warning: Angst
Tony's P.O.V
I've been on this spaceship for... three weeks? I think? Time is a hard concept when you're stranded in space. Time is also hard to grasp when the hours and seconds become the same due to indescribable loneliness.
I should correct myself- I'm not alone. I've shared this confinement space with Nebula. She's great company. She doesn't get into feelings and I'm all for that. I don't even know how to manage how I'm feeling.
My kid is gone. Peter. He was a kid. He was a kid and he fought the biggest threat the universe has ever faced. Peter was always the brave type. Doing things for the greater good. With this attitude, I think I forgot that he was a child. I got a reminder though. When I held the kid in my arms as he shook with fear, as he faded out of my life. Peter died right after he did.
Stephen. My soulmate. For the short period of time I was with him, he filled the empty space in my heart. Made me feel like I belonged. I didn't even get to be with him a full twenty-four hours. I guess that's what hurts most. He was taken away from me before I could actually enjoy life with him.
Oxygen runs out tomorrow morning. And that'll be it. I'm not phased by it. Everyone I love is either dead, or on Earth and thinks I'm dead.
I sit in the pilot's seat and close my eyes, accepting the inevitable, and wishing it came sooner.
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What the hell is that?
I may not be able to see color but the white is burning my eyes.
It's so bright.
Annoyingly bright.
Like a star.
Wait, it not a star.
A woman?
A woman surrounded by light.
I'm definitely hallucinating.
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I walked off the spaceship that landed next to the Avengers Compound. Nebula supported me as I walked down the steps, but then left me to myself.
I wasn't by myself long.
Good ole' Captain America came sprinting towards me, and placed a steady hand on my shoulder.
"I couldn't stop him," I told him.
"Neither could I."
I turned to face him, not caring if I'm showing how weak I felt.
"I lost the kid." I whispered.
Steve sighed, "Tony, we lost."
I paused. I knew this already. Of course we lost. In no way was this a win. I just didn't even comprehend what we lost. I was too focused on what I lost. We lost half of the population of the universe. Friends, family, even enemies that some might have. Gone.
We lost.
"Where's Rhodey? Where's Happy? Pepper?" I scrambled to know where the last of my family was.
Steve looked at me sadly, "Rhodey's fine... but, oh god, Tony, Happy and Pepper, they... they didn't make it."
I looked at him in shock and pulled away from him. I know we all lost. We all did.
