Trendsetter (book 2) - H.S

Chapter 39: Sweetener.

THERE WILL BE ANOTHER CHAPTER AFTER THIS PROMISE!!!!

HARRY'S POV:

    I pull the sheets back, and she tugs them her way once more, not giving me much leverage.
    "Jesus El when did you get so strong." I mumble, hardly getting my words out as I tug the sheets. "Come on..." I mumble, coming forward to her, crouching next to the bed. I peel the sheets away from her face, but she keeps them in her clutch, only showing me her face. "We have to leave soon..." I mumble, and she keeps her straight face, rolling away from me, and pulling the sheets back over her head.
    "I don't want to go." She mumbles.
    "I still haven't given you your christmas present darling..." I mumble, and she still doesn't move. I stand up, and go to the closet, pulling out a bag.I bring it to her, and sit on the bed to the side where she's facing. She looks up to me, and I push the bag forward to her. She finally moves, sitting up, and taking the bag from my hands.She pulls out the tissue paper, and throws it to the side, pulling out the framed picture. She doesn't take her eyes from it, staring straight at the painted piece in front of her. I watch her eyes well up, watching her feel the painting, watching it sink into her skin. She sucks in a sharp breath, and it's the break of her tears, a few falling. She sets it down, covering her face from me, and I pull her forward. "It's not going to be the same without him... It's never going to be the same, but you've still got your mum... you've got me, you've got my family... You've made it this far, and you know all he wanted was for you to go even farther darling." I mumble, my chin tickled by her hair as I hold her to me.
    "I don't want to have Christmas without him..." She whispers, and I can hear her crying.
    "I know... I know darling, but there's going to be things you don't want to do without him. Walking down the aisle... When we have kids, when you need advice, when we go on tour again... It's all going to suck and I'm not going to lie to you but do you know what?" I ask, and hear her take a deep breath.
    "What?" She asks.
    "Even though he won't be beside you when you walk down that aisle... he'll still be there... he'll always be there." I tell her, and she pulls back.
    "And you'll be at the end of it..." She mumbles, her tear stained cheeks showing to me.
    "I'll be at the end of it... It's going to be the best day of my life darling... I'll never be able to replace him, no one will, but I love you just as much... Everyone is supporting you in this... it doesn't matter how much time passes, it doesn't matter at all... All that matters is that you still live your life. I'll hang this up, and then you can go get ready alright love?" I ask, motioning to the painting.
    "Alright..." She mumbles, moving from me, but I hold her still, my thumb gliding over her cheek. I kiss her softly, and pull back. "You make the bad things better... Every time."
    "I love you so much darling... Now go." I let her go, and she scurries off, going to our bathroom. I take the framed painting and look at it... I asked Suzie if she'd send over her favorite picture of El, and Garrison, and I sent it to a well known artist, having them take the picture, and turn it into a beautiful oil painting... It's black and white, but it doesn't look boring, it's incredible. I work, hanging the photo above her desk, moving some things around. I go back up to our room, and she's in a matching set, her tanned skin perfect against the black lace, and I move to her, my hands traveling around her waist, and turning her around. Her wet hair hangs as it starts curling, and I look down to her, brushing the hair from her face, and appreciating her with my eyes.
    "What are you doing?" She asks softly, her eyes trailing away. She gets shy now, every single time we get intimate, I touch her skin, and appreciate her she looks away, her cheeks turning pink. Considering how the two of us started, how physical everything was it's almost funny now... I lift her chin.
    "Appreciating you..." I mumble, and her lips softly curl. Her arms are crossed over her chest, and I pull her closer, her hands fumbling to my chest.  I put my to her cheek, the softness of her skin igniting a fire.
    "You're at a bit of an advantage... you're fully clothed right now, and I'm-" She starts, but I kiss her anyway, pressing my lips to hers.
    "Let's fix that then.." I mumble, and she closes the space once more, a passion that burns through me. I move her, guiding her to the sheets, and she moves easily, my hands exploring, and moving to the lace, feeling it between my fingers. She tugs on my shirt, pulling it over my head, and I don't hesitate to connect us again. She hits the bed, her hair fanning around her as she does, and she looks to me for only a moment before I'm back on her,I don't even bother kissing her lips, moving straight to her jaw, and down to her neck, pressing my lips to the soft skin, her sweet gasp filling the air.
    "I thought... I thought we-" Her voice is breathless, my lips making her lose her train of thought. "I thought we were running late." She pushes her words, and my hands move around her back, and despite her words she arches her back, giving me access to unclasp her bra, taking it from her body.
    "We can be late then." I mumble, and she takes me by the neck, her leg wrapping around me, and before I know it I'm under her, her skin bare, her body open to me, and her eyes full of lust. She reaches for the button of my pants, quickly moving her fingers as her hair covers her chest, the black lace still decadent on her lower half. I move my hips, letting her strip me down. I take her by her back, and flip her again, pulling the lace from her, and pushing into her, thankful for the small pill she takes every day, and more than thankful for the feeling she gives me in these moments. I'm still in awe of her, the gasp she gives everytime we meet like this, the pure bliss in her eyes when they're open, and the pure pleasure on her face when her eyes are closed.
    The feeling right now is like a wave of relief, and tranquility, washing over the two of us as we mesh together. I draw my hips in and out slowly, moving to the pace she loves, the pace she craves. Her hands grasp to me, cling to me, and I can't help but gasp, drawing in sharp breaths as I feel her, as I love her. Her beautiful pink lips part softly as she breathes out, and I'm beyond in love with this woman... I'm head over heels for her. I lean forward, my lips crashing to hers, and a soft whimper leaving her lips as she grips the sheets, waiting for stability. She kisses harshly, feeling everything just as I am. She takes my lips between her teeth, tugging softly, only making me melt more into her, only making me fall farther into her warmth. She kisses me again, shifting, her back arching. Our foreheads press together, our eyes focused to each others, my jaw clenching.
    Profanities leave her soft lips, her head pressing to the mattress, and her eyes rolling back as it does. I bury my head into the crook of her neck, taking every bit of her in, her perfume, her softness, the feeling of her wrapped around me... pure bliss. I kiss her, slowly biting her neck, switching between my teeth, and my lips, tasting her as well. I'll never get used to this. I have pure dominance over her at this moment, and this is one of the only times I ever do, but it doesn't matter. She's puddy in my hand, and I watch her unravel right now, watch her fall apart as a high crashes through her, as I lose control of my own body in this moment, every feeling becoming more intense, and every bit of love pouring over. We both breath out, the only sound our panting, and heavy breathing.
    I pull her up as I move away from her, reaching for her bra, grabbing her underwear as well, and handing them to her. She takes them from me, breathing out as she does, and pushing her hair from her face.
    "I feel like I need to shower again." She mumbles, and I smirk, pulling clothes over my body.
    "When we get home we'll shower again." I offer, and she raises an eyebrow to me.
    "Sounds like the perfect set up to end up not taking a shower, and right back where we started.. In bed." She mumbles, and I shrug.
    "Doesn't sound like a problem to me." I mumble, and I feel her hand connect to my ass, and I turn around, grabbing her wrist, pulling her close to me. "Watch yourself, or you'll end up in bed sooner than you thought." I joke, and she pecks my lips, moving to the closet. "Feel better?" I ask her, and she sighs.
    "Sex doesn't fix anything... it just makes me not think about it for a while..." She tells me.
    "I'm glad you've finally come to that realization after so long... but I didn't have sex with you to make you feel better... I had sex with you because I love you darling... Because I want you to feel love in every way that you can. Because you're incredibly sexy and it's almost impossible to resist you... It's not going to fix anything, but it does make me feel good... knowing I'm making you feel that." I tell her, and she smiles, one of my tshirts hanging over her body.
    "You make me feel good all the time.. Sex or not. I love you, now let's get this over with." She mumbles, and I pull her back to me.
    "Try to have some fun tonight... for me?" I ask, and she nods, tucking her hair behind her ear. She pulls away from me, and moves to the door, walking out, and going down the stairs. I turn away from the door, and open the top drawer, seeing my tshirts, and digging under them to find the small velvet box. I take it out, opening it, seeing the diamond, the ring gleaming, and perfect for her. I stare at it, and my mind wanders, thinking of her face if I were to pop this out, the whole deal, me on my knee, her with her hands over her lips, gasping from surprise... but the other half of me is afraid that she won't react that way at all, part of me fears that she'll be mortified from it.
    "Harry! Come on! Bo is in his kennel, let's go!" She calls, and I close the box, tucking it back under the tshirts, and closing the drawer, ready to be with her along with my family, and her mother tonight. Forgetting the thought of proposing all together, not yet.. But soon....