The Outsiders [Discontinued]

Seeing a Goddess//Johnnyboy

'Johnny has been dead for years' thought Ponyboy. Ponyboy started at a wall. 'Dally is also dead'. Ponyboy nodded his head and bit his lip; Ponyboy was zoned-out. Even if you call his name he wouldn't answer.

Ponyboy smiled. "Hi Johnny...." Ponyboy said. Ever since Johnny death Ponyboy would always said "Hi Johnny". One time Sodapop was with him when he said that.

People called him crazy. Darry took Ponyboy to the doctors and the doctor said that nothing is wrong with Ponyboy.

Ponyboy's eyes opened. "Johnny....?" Sodapop heard him and shifted over to him.

"Ponyboy? You okay?" Sodapop asked sleepily.

Ponyboy jumped up. "Johnny! Soda! I saw Johnny!" Ponyboy exclaimed. Sodapop looked at his brother worried.

"Pony? What do you mean? Johnny is dead" Sodapop said/asked.

"No Soda! I saw him! Johnny he had-". Sodapop cut off Ponyboy.

"Shhh Pony...shh Johnny us dead, ok" Sodapop said.

"But Soda-".

"Pony it was just a Dream! Ok" Sodapop said. Ponyboy frowned.

"Johnny...I miss you" Ponyboy said. Ponyboy moved to his desk and on his desk was a Piece of paper; Ponyboy grabbed his pencil, Ponyboy pushed against the paper but stop to think.

"So Mr. Curtis! Your saying that your young brother Ponyboy Micheal Curtis....is seeing things or hearing things?" The doctor asked and Darry nodded.

The doctor turned to Ponyboy. "Ok I'm going to need some privacy" the doctor said to Darry and Sodapop.

"Ok" Darry and Sodapop got up. Ponyboy watched as his brother left.

"So Ponyboy please describe what you see?" The Doctor said.

"Johnny...." Ponyboy said. The doctor looked at Ponyboy.

"Who is Johnny and why are you seeing him or hearing him? Is he died? Or alive?" Doctor asked.

"Johnny is my bestfriend and he is Died..." Ponyboy said.

"Ok...do you see him at night? Or hear him?"

"I see him and hear him.."

"Ok and what do you see?"

"A G-"

"-A Goddess..." Ponyboy said. He remembered seeing Johnny as a Goddess.

Dear Johnny

Johnny....I remember when I first met you..at school. You looked so lonely, people bullied you, people hated you, nobody loved you not even your parents...but I loved you. I cared for you, I wanted to protect you, to hold you in my arms and tell you how much I love you. The gang loves you. Even Dally loved you. But when you died....my world fell apart; I wanted to kill myself so bad just to see you again, to be with you. But one night I saw you, saw you Johnny. You were a beautiful God, a Goddess. You looked happy, you looked healed from all the pain. Every day I wake up and think about you and say "I love you Johnny". Thank you Johnny for protecting me....and after your death, I wrote a story about us, Sodapop, Darry, Steve, Two-Bit and Dally. And I wrote our adventure. All about how we went to the movies and met Cherry valance and her friend, to how you killed bob for me, the church fire, the rumble, your death and Dally's death. And it went like this;

When I stepped out into the bright sunlight from the darkness of the movie house I only have two things on my mind.. Paul Newman and a ride home.

Love
Ponyboy Micheal Curtis