Tramp Stamp. Billie Eilish

Part 5

I guess we weren't sneaky. 

The room assignments had changed. Billie and I were rooming. I was particularly glad. Hailey had a friend come stay with us because the friend was struggling at home. I hated that girl with a burning passion not seen by mortal men. She kissed Haileys' ass so much. Billie had heard all about it in my midnight rants. 

"You're telling me you've never seen this." She was practically on top of me. Her face was directly pressed into my ear. She let out a massive burp before backing up. I scowled brushing her off. My days were always better with her. We mainly watched TV in between interviews and shows. 

"Like I've said three times I've only seen Kiki the witch and the one with the fish girl." I explained as we watched something with a large bear thing. Billie kept strict control of the remote. 

"You're basic. Basic bitch." She teased. She stuck out her tongue. I pecked her cheek. 

"Horse girl." I tutted. She pounced back on me. Her fingers dug into the bruise on my hip. I fell off the stage last night. It left a huge bruise all up the left side of my body. When the medical staff brought me backstage Billie had laughed her ass completely off. She had rolled on the ground. She also claimed to have farted but that was just a usual thing for her. That had caused Hailey to stop and laugh before going to the bus. 

I got the last laugh though. I don't think I've ever laughed so hard. Billie had been walking with Hailey and I and fell down the stairs. Just full on steam rolled down the stairs. She sprained her ankle. Now she has to wear a brace. Maggie didn't find it funny when we called her in the stairwell  asking for her help. Billie had yet to slow down even with her brace. She said she needed to give her whole self for the shows to be good. 

Finneas was very annoyed with us. He was rooming with Maggie and Patrick when we weren't on the bus. He just wanted to talk to his girlfriend. Him and I have clicked with our love of Harry Potter in other news. He's a Slytherin and I am a Hufflepuff. Billie's annoyed with the two of us. Fin was like my older brother in a way. She could shove it if she had a problem. I wouldn't say that because her tongue game, Oh My God was just the shit. 

I felt like I had found an amazing friend. We hooked up of course. She was very open with a lot of things, including sex. She refused to even hug me when we weren't in venues or the bus and hotel room. Something about not wanting to be a lesbian. She told me about it when she was leaving hickies on my thighs. I really liked Billie. We were ying and Yang. I was super cautious and she was going to rob a bank on accident one day.  

The worst seemed to be looming. I felt like I was trying to rip open a curtain that was a thousand pounds. We were only showing what we wanted the other to see. Sometimes we'd catch a glimpse behind the scenes before the curtain was yanked even tighter. 

She seemed more tired the closer we got to Europe. She did say we would go bike riding in New Amsterdam. I was holding her to it. She was willing to make plans as long as we weren't doing anything romantic. We didn't that type of press coverage. 

"How'd you know?" She asked one night. I had her button up on and she had her sweat pants on. 

"Know what?" I looked up from my snack. Cashews and pretzels. 'Vegan' as Billie would say. 

"You know." She prompted. I looked over at her confused. She was playing with a strand of hair. I figured it out pretty quickly. 

"I was high and at a party, playing spin the bottle at a party as twelve year olds do. I made out with a girl. I didn't care who she was. My boyfriend at the time kissed like a seal so the bar was pretty low." I rolled my eyes thinking about it. "That was the biggest most obvious reason. I really liked looking at play boy magazines when we went to the grocery store. I remember just staring at the woman on the cover and wanting to be her. I am Bi though. I like dick as well. Last year I had like six people at home waiting for me." Billie nodded, smiling. She told me many times that she has like a million people at home. I was her main girl though. We weren't exclusive so there was no foul. She apparently got herself a fuck buddy after we kissed. She said it stirred something in her. 

"Someone leaked a video. I was outed in front of the world at fifteen." Let's bully a fifteen year old. Ellen had to step in. Fucking Ellen. 

Back to present time. Each time I didn't know a show Billie got to leave a mark. She was currently working on my back. According to her my back would look amazing. I had hutch that she was just sucking wherever she wanted. Occasionally she would tell me about her trip to the anime studio in Tokyo. She told me about how the body suit gave her a wedgie. I had gone to a spa that day instead. 

Billie let go of me with a loud pop. I rolled over onto my back. I reached up and messed with her hair. "I like you." That's all she said before going to shower. I looked at the door in shock. 

*******

"This is romantic." I looked over at Hailey. She was looking at the ground bellow. It was a long way down. We were watching the people from the Eiffel tower. They looked like ants. Management had gotten us a night tour. My dad was telling my mom all about how the Nazis tried to invade the tower. Patrick even joined the conversation sometimes. Billie and Maggie were hugging, watching the people as well. Billie was way to interested in looking down. 

"This is Paris." I waited for her to laugh. She switched topics.  

"Really, I thought you were American." she responded. I snorted. 

"Nah, I am a lesbian." Hailey snickered and bent down. Haileys mom called her over for a picture. The city was glowing yellow and I was bathing in it. I felt a presence next to me. Billie was watching the city. Almost contemplative. I scooted closer to her. I took a bite of one of the cookies I bought. 

"I would offer but there's eggs." I feel bad we can go to any food place but Billie can't eat anything besides fries. The struggles of a vegan. I was trying for her. 

"It's fine. We had a big lunch." She shrugged. I reached into my overall pocket. I've been keeping snacks for her on me. She liked to eat and it made me happy when she smiled. 

"How you liking the city of love?" I asked, my hand slid closer to hers. She hooked out pinkies together. The most she was willing to do. 

"I like when they chant Billie, Billie." She mimicked the crows accent. I couldn't hold the giggle. We'll be in Berlin in two days and I wasn't ready. 

"We'll be home in a month." We both sighed and slouched down. Our sighs were for different reasons.