I Won't Give Up

Chapter 5

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Chapter 5-

Niall got hungry. That boy definitely has two stomachs. To stop his complaining, we decided to go to Nandos, or should I say he made us go to Nandos.

"Niall! That's going to add time to getting back home! It will take us an hour and 15 minutes!" I complained trying to change his mind.

"NO! WE ARE GOING!" He is so fiesty when he's hungry. I gave up with my argument and drove to Nandos.

"So, that was an interesting interview." Leave it to Zayn to break the silence. Liam started to laugh.

"I actually had fun! Amanda was really nice! I didn't like the questions our fans asked though. Sorry about that Haz-" He did not just say that. "Oh wait. Shit.." He looked down at his hands puzzled and looked at me. He whispered sorry.

"WHAT?!" Niall, Zayn and Louis said this at the sane time and were looking at me with confused expressions. I sighed and pulled over. It's been 3 or 4 months, so I guess I should tell them. But what if I do it again? They will all be so disappointed with me. I don't know what to do. I love them to death and trust them but still.

"Um Harry?" I snapped out of my thoughts to meet Zayn's brown eyes. "You alright mate?"

"Sorry about that guys. I just kind of zoned out."

"Harry, why did you pull over? We need to get to Nandos! And what does Liam mean by what he said?" Why couldn't Niall drop it?

I sighed and started driving again. I guess I'll tell them while I drive.

"Alright, so 3 or 4 months ago, I cut. It was really bad too. It was everyday and-" I looked back at them to see Louis staring at me angrily, Zayn with a shocked expression and Niall crying. I see why Louis is mad. "Don't cry my little leprechaun."

He sniffled. "I'm sorry Harry! I shouldn't have brought it up! I'm sorry." He was quiet for a minute and then spoke again. "Why'd you do it Haz?"

I noticed a few more stray tears fall. I didn't want to hurt them this much. "Nialler, it's okay! Please stop crying. You're making me sad. I don't know. It was because of family problems and hate and just a lot of stuff." I tried to keep my answer pretty basic.

Niall nodded and stayed silent, not wanting to say anything else. I drove waiting for Zayn to give me a life lesson, but got none. I looked over at Liam in the passenger seat who was staring out the window. I looked into the rearview mirror where I could see Louis. His angry eyes met mine and softened as tears started to flow. Everyone noticced and I decided to pull over. I got out of the car and sat in the backseat. Zayn got out and told Liam to drive. I pulled Louis onto my lap.

"Louis, what's wrong?" He looked at me.

"Why didn't you tell me?!" A few more tears slipped.

I sighed. "Lou, I didn't tell you because I didn't think you cared. You changed before I started. You weren't yourself. I thought you hated me! I thought you didn't want anything to do with me! It felt like you wouldn't even care if I died during that time! You were the number one reason why I started." I heard my voice raise in the middle of the sentence. His eyes were now filled with guilt. He definitely felt bad. I felt a tear fall down my cheek as well. His eyes transformed instantly to anger.

"Why should I tell you then?" He released himself from my hold and sat in the seat next to Niall slipping headphones on. Everyone looked at me in confusion. Niall was the only one who spoke to me.