Waitress.

Very Confused.

It was very busy in We Want Another Dish and i was working hard the whole time. Unless it was it busy we didn't get complaints from curstomers.  Today i was working as a waitress, like most of the time. Only when they can't handle it in the kitchen i help there.  I like being a waitress more than being a cook, because as a waitress you have contact with the customers and you notice the mood in the restaurant and most of the time the mood is good so it is nice to work there. In the kitchen there is much more pressure and it is more busy there, and i am not so good in handeling that so I don't. Every now and then when i have nothing to do i start to think about Luke and Ashton, i love them both but as i already said to them i don't know in wich way. I have to figure that out but i have no idea how to do that. Ohh gosh it is soo hard. How can i get this clear, and what if i have it clear. Can i chose between them, i mean how can it be the same between me and the guy i didn't chose. What if our friendship wil be destroyed, gone, away??? All those thoughts keep spinning trough my head, at night i can't sleep because i keep thinking of this. Ughh i wish i could have them both if i wanted to but i can't so... i'll have to make a decission someday, somehow.

I stop tinking about this all and get back to work, i can break my mind over this later. i went to table 6 to take the order from the man who was sitting there, he ordered i salad and a coke. He also asked if 5 Seconds of summer was going to play tonight, i said they were and he seemed satisfied with that answer. I went away to another table to take an order. That question about if 5sos was playing tonight seemed really weird to me, i mean it is a middle-aged man why would he want 5sos to play?? If it was a teenage girl i would get it, but this... I coudn't get it out of my mind the rest of the evening, i was constantly thinking about it. Who was that man and what did he want?? I didn't tell the guys about it, i mean why would i, i didn't even know what it meant if it means something.

The guys played Just Saying, Daylight and Mrs all american tonight. While they where playing i was looking at the man who asked if 5sos was playing tonight. it looked like he was listening and looking attentive. Like he was analyzing everything about them. And i started thinking that maybe he was a scout, maybe he was looking for new talent! He might be interested in 5sos, that would be amazing! Should i tell them what i thought or not?? I decided not to because i also could be wrong and then they would be very disappointed and i didn't want that. During Daylight i stopped looking at the man, but i started looking at the guys.                                                                                                             

When luke sang:

Walk my way
Mrs All American
Say my name
No need to pretend
Don't be shy
Mrs All American
I'll show you why
You're not gonna walk away

During Mrs all american he was looking at me and i directly knew what he meant and, i looked at ashton and saw that he was looking at me too and i looked away and started to think about all of it again.