My Husband, the Genius (Neji Hyuga X Reader)

Chapter 11 ~ Stage 1

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto and the Characters. I only own the story and the Characters I invented.

Previously:
Finally (Y/n) and the others arrive in Konoha.
She gets to know Hinata, with whom she gets on very well right from the start.
The two chat in (Y/n)'s new room, whereupon Haldir comes up for discussion.
Hinata thinks that (Y/n) is lovesick and that she goes through the stages of breakups.

I laid in my bed thinking about the things the young blue haired Hyuga had told me.
"There are 5 Stages of Breakup, I guess you are in Stage two." She said.
Stage two...
"After crying a lot, there is a stage you finally want to find peace and now there are no more tears because you try to make yourself busy in your work, being social, hangout and finally being little happy and acting normal." She explained with a pitiful expression. "You must have been really sad the last few days."
Was I sad?
No, not truly.
I didn't even thought of crying.
Actually, I didn't really care. The thought of Haldir clearly hurt, but you couldn't say that we were really together.
With that thought I turned to my side, facing the dark decorated with flourishes lines wall while a little sigh escaped from my lips.
I was able to close my eyes and rest a little, but I still couldn't sleep.
There were just too many thoughts in my head that caused disorder.

A strange feeling pervaded me.
The feeling of unhappiness and disappointment.
I was now in Konoha in my own room, a quite big room and all alone.

Throughout the whole trip I just wanted to get to get to know my new home, at least 'home' for a while, or maybe just get there alive...
This little secret goal gave me the strength to keep getting up and stepping forward, keep walking - or being carried by Neji - and now I have achieved it, but it wasn't enough.
I want more, I need more.
A goal that I couldn't easily achieve, or just a goal. Something.
Anything that could distract me.
Distract me?
This urge to do something to distract from the overwhelming feeling of emptiness in me.
Every time I think of him, I feel like this.
A hole, a piece torn out of me or just heavy empty heart.

And again I thought of him.
His dark deep voice gave me the sweetest chills over the skin when he talked, and his little lost stutters when he promises. 
'I'll find a way. I promise. You will always be in my heart like I am in yours'
When I close my eyes I can still feel his soft big hand stroking over my red cheeks and his hot breath on my neck.
And again something in me was being torn open.
What an ironic pathetic lonely tragedy my life is. Lonely.

I was always told that love was the solution to everything. Love brings us security, happiness, joy and strength.
Now we love and still feel miserable like never before.
We were not told what happens when the person we love suddenly cannot be with us anymore.
Suddenly I could only think of he lost love, everything beautiful that I had experienced with him and everything that I could not experience together with him. Every little dream we had, will stay a lost dream.
Nothing can compensate for this loss.
I got sick from the pain and I felt my strength flow out of my body, it was sucked into the little hole that was in my heart.

There was a knock on my door, I don't know if I was just too tired to say something or if I was too demotivated to open my mouth, anyway there was another knock followed by a small slightly dull call for my name.
A little squeaking noise told me that the door opened and someone entered, carefully to be quiet.
I actually didn't feel like seeing anyone, but I made the effort and turned to my right side to see Hinata.
Her small smile disappeared along with her happy mood when she looked into my face.
"(Y/n)-chan, are you alright? Did you cry all night long?" She asked concerned and her brow furrowed.
I suppressed the feeling of helplessness and put my arm over my hot and probably red and puffy eyes to cool and rest them a little.
Hinata sat down on the bed next to me.
Her weight made me sink a little more to my side.
"Listen, if you don't feel ready to step among people, we can stay here and have a nice cozy day. Just you and me."