In the months before my decision to stop being hopelessly in love with Ed, I had many fantasies about us together, nothing too graphic, I have morals. But nonetheless I had them, they would usually consist of Ed and I being cute and couple-y and romantic, a sort of pure daydream.
Sometimes he'd be the one confessing his love, sometimes me, almost always after a beautiful evening of wine and rump steak, that warm buzz after 3 glasses of red, only 1 for him, lightweight. The fireplace cracking just so. Paradise.
Then when she came along, my fantasies turned mainly towards her being rather unceremoniously dumped and Ed finally seeing that I was the perfect match for him. A Ying to his Yung or whatever. Symbiosis. Or even her dying tragically and me, ever supportive, comforting him and letting him find solace in me, until our friendship flowed naturally into a relationship.
God how I used to crave that idea. Her, dead in a ditch somewhere. Rats feeding on her face, stupid glasses smashed into itty bitty pieces, and above her Ed and I, not giving her a second thought.
Those fantasies soon died out though, when I realised that I could never actually kill her, or even have her killed without Ed finding out. He's far too smart for me to fool him. I'm astounded that he never noticed the way I acted around him, it's not exactly if I tried to hide it either. It was plain as day. Although why would he find something he wasn't looking for? Why notice that behaviour if you aren't looking for it?
That's why I didn't see this coming...
Ed, standing in my living room, sopping wet from the howling rain outside, back over 2 weeks early, telling me that he's ended things with Isabella.
All I can bring myself to think is "and I was just getting over him."
[I am a whore and I shall leave this on a cliffhanger. Cheers to haventfoundmaberries for the amazing ideas and continued support of my horse shite. These chapters wouldn't've been written without you☆~]
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The Heart Wants What it Cannot Have (nygmobblepot)
Fiksi PenggemarWhere everything is the same, but Oswald tries to get over Ed instead of killing Isabella (even though I REALLY hate her :( ) Not beta red we die like mne.
