so I'm already late for posting this chapter. I was supposed to write something for Monday and post it on the same day. well... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ oops.
anyway I'm supposed to write about what happened in my week. um yeah good luck with that Future, your life is hella mega boring. usually having an extra day to do things is beneficial. not this time.
so i lied. i didn't actually start this on monday like i said.
why do i do that?
i guess since nothing really happened that was major, i'll (maybe quickly?) reiterate what happened these past few months. let me tell you, 2020 just ain't it. it fucking blows so far.
January
that falling-out with Iran was... something.
corona virus? I meeeeaan, it's serious, don't get me wrong, but should we all be freaking out as much as we are?
sidenote: one of my teachers today had a hissy fit about that. saying how [REDACTED]s and [REDACTED]s are using the virus to blame each other for blah blah and what? what was he saying? I don't even remember, but then again, was I really paying all that much attention?
"Anyone who doesn't take this seriously is a fricking idiot." *lightly slams papers down*
- my teacher
(w-whww-wh--- shiver me timbers1! he said FRICKING OMG)
February
oh SHIT my boyfriend's been cheating on me? wowww no way! and he's been doing it for how long? ...huh? two years? yeah. imagine.
really. two years. the other person he was dating had told me (on the 20th) that their relationship had just turned 2 years old. my relationship with him? not even 3 years old. it would have been come September.
that day, the 20th? I was actually in a good mood. fourth period Spanish class, a little bit more than halfway through the period, though? shit got me fucked up, I'll tell you that much.
and you know, I had, maybe once or twice, thought that he had been cheating on me. and when I did, I fucking slammed those thoughts down. (how could you think that? what makes you think that? you're such a bitch for thinking that.)
but Past, am I wrong? am I still a bitch?
I'll never fucking forget that feeling. the feelings of anger, sadness, hopelessness, uselessness, all mixed and merged together. they were all in a pot being stirred. with each screenshot that I read from the other person's friend, the friend and him talking, the liar saying how there were no good memories that he shared with me. that I never cared about him. that oh fucking hell it all just screamed, "you were a terrible 🥀friend! the other person was everything you weren't, everything he wanted! the other person did all that he asked! you're fucking worthless!"
and then the fucking shit he said about how lying's a sin and how he can't lie! he's a catholic!
YOU LIED TO ME AND THE OTHER PERSON. AND CHEATING'S A SIN TOO.
the fuck is wrong with him I swear to god
and the reason for him not telling me that he wanted to break up with me?
"because it would have hurt 🥀's feelings if i had told 🥀."
bitch what kind of fucking-
(that's probably a lie too. I wouldn't be surprised.)
yeah. because I would rather deal with finding out that I was being cheated on instead of being told I wanted to be broken up with. yeah this is so much better WOW
I'm done talking about this for now I don't feel like going through it all in my head. his logic doesn't make sense.
a lot of entries going forward are probably gonna have a lot of that ^ bullshit in it.
the other person is really sweet though. 10/10.
🥀
