My Kind Of Perfect

Chapter Nine

Tomorrow's an important date in my life and I'm not really excited about it. Birthdays make me old and I don't want to be old.

If only we could just stop time, pause it or rewind it, life would be so much better. But if people abuse it, it would be a wreck.

I don't even have plans for college. It's so hard to figure everything out when you're not even sure of what you really want in the future.

People change minds. I keep changing my mind on almost everything. And I tell you, it's not a good thing.

We know the simple thing about what's right or wrong but we will never know exactly what decision or choices we think is right.

I was always not sure.

In my situation right now, I don't even think I have made the right decision to give Rushton a chance to prove himself to me.

I just wish I did.

But that doesn't mean he'll be my boyfriend in the next few days, weeks, months or years. He'll need to wait a little more.

We agreed to act like a couple and see what'll happen. No intimate moments but only sweet gestures.

How do you even do that?

I can't even say no because it may be worth the try. If I don't really feel anything towards him, as in if I don't really fall in love, this will stop. I mean, It'll be my loss but it won't hurt that much.

This is gonna be my first time having a "boyfriend". Or at least it's like that but not really. So I'm gonna be this awkward girl with no idea about relationships.

I've read teen fictions and stuff like that. But being in a relationship is not as easy as we think it is.

I've also seen relationship goals on twitter and tumblr but I can't really tell if the guy would actually do things like that to me.

Last Tuesday, Rushton offered to drive me to school. He asked Brian's permission and he agreed. Since he was the designated driver for the day, it was fine with him. If it was me, Rushton will have to drive himself alone.

Yesterday, he bought me a latté from Starbucks. He didn't give it personally to me but he did left it on the desk in the classroom of my first period. It even left a note for me to read and I've earned too much attention from the class.

For damn's sake. It's just latté on a desk that someone gave to me. It's not like someone died in my chair and people's attention were really necessary.

Today, nothing really happened or not yet. I'm not sure. I hope nothing will.

The principal had to call all the teachers for an emergency meeting so classes were cancelled for the meantime.

The first action I was planning to do when I got out of the classroom was to find my only best friend present here, Sydney. But she was nowhere to find around the school.

I called her but she didn't answer.

I went for plan B. I try to find Brian and he was also nowhere to be found. I also called but I was ignored.

Oh wow. Thank you, brother.

I already roamed the school twice and that ginger head and blonde guy can't be found anywhere.

I don't have a plan C but I guess I'll have to make one.

I locate the brunette with blue eyes and tall guy called Rushton Hensley if he's around. Hoping he is. At least I have someone to keep me company.