'Mood' writing

Emotional friend

Why cant I have you? Why cant you be mine? Why am i damned to be stuck in this place of no return? Theres no u turn here once I'm here I have to stay here till it's too late. By then I have to see you with someone else. Watch you kiss, hug, please, & squeeze them. With me on the side line secretly wishing it was me. Wishing it was me that could feel it all that you do to them. But I have to be supportive that's what I'm here for right? To support you with everything you do and support you even when you have the stupidest ideas. Cause that's what friends do right? Support each other and be there for one another. But I tried I really did I tried to stay in my place but my heart didnt get the memo. Now I'm stuck here with all these emotions and all these stupid love letters that I have written from the moment I first felt this way. I tried to express myself but you took it as a joke and still decided that you would look in a different direction. What's wrong with me? Thought we were perfect yet you seemed to think otherwise. It's fine. It hurts but it's fine. I'll continue to support you but sadly it will be from a distance just till these emotions go away or till someone can keep my mind away from you and take over my heart the way you do without trying. I'll continue to be there for you but sadly it wont be as much as before not only because of these emotions but because you will have someone new to always be there. I'm sorry friend but I have fallen for you.