'Mood' writing

My Fault?

You saw a message on my phone the other night. Someone said to me 'night boo' and after reading it you choose to be petty the following day. You told me and telling me constantly that you don't want me and we wont be nothing more than we are now so why are you being like this? Why are you so upset about the message? Why are you blaming me again for talking to people because I feel lonely and actually want to try  to talk to people and try to get to know them rather than they know me? It confuses me so much. I understand we were having a good day the entire day before I got the message but now you want to keep being petty and now that i am being honest with you about how I'm talking to someone but not actually talking to them you get like this??? What am I supposed to do just stay another 3 years single when I just want someone to actually love me and not disrespect me and talk down to me all the fucking time??? Please tell rather than just sitting there and staring at me like you hate my guts. But I cant tell you that because you claim you don't hate anyone because hating someone takes up too much energy yet you can see it in your eyes. Please say something other than don't worry about it and good night I'm going to bed. Please I'm begging you to talk to me. Isn't that what your supposed to do whenever there is a problem? Communicate with one another till the issue is resolved or damn near fixed and/or forgotten.