Feeling Too Much

Joking Around

See, I like the depressed girl in my school

And when I got enough courage to tell her that, 

they laughed and she cried too 

"That's so funny, we respect you even more"

It's not respect

I chased after, chased after, 

but she won't look at me

Another thing changed by pathetic misery

Why am I a jokester if I can't be taken seriously?

Makes me want to die

Then my only friend came up to me

"I thought you weren't a bully

You don't have to like her, but don't make fun of her

You know how much I've loved that girl, why'd you got to hurt her"

"I trusted you"

I don't have enough strength to fight

All these new revelations coming to me right now

If only someone would look at me without assuming what I say's a joke....

Weeks later saw the same girl, walking happily with my ex-friend

She was laughing, then she turns

I can see bruises through the fake-up

Shocked, I watch a little longer

I see him take her behind the dumpster

Hits her till she's crying

What's the point of this world?

I confronted her after school, 

asked why she's putting up with it

The girl I love hates me back, 

"I'm sorry," she says

"Don't let him hit you"

"He's not, now leave me be!"

If only I wasn't such a jokester

My best friend says I'm joking 

When I report it to the principal

He brings in a friend who says the same

I have no friend, I get suspended

Why does life have to be so unfair?

I'm slowly dwindling

Wounds getting deeper

Bracelets are more common

Hide my eyes from those outside

Depression will find me

Can I ever be picked up again?

I relied so much on the laughs

Of others to keep myself alive

Should it have been screams, 

I'm such a freak

This Sulley can't keep going