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Chapter Four

PARTY NIGHT.

And the day is finally here, the party day. as we arrived to this dude named jack's house, the parking lot was already so full. it feels like everybody left their houses tonight just to attend this party.The house is so huge, the garden area is lighted up with colorful lights and everybody in here is having fun and each is holding a red cup of beer. as soon as we walked in to the house, Scarlette went and go herself a cup aswell 

"Here's something that could lighten you up" she said while handing me a cup of beer

"Mm, but i don't drink" i said with a loud voice so she could hear me 

"oh come on, just for tonight it'll be fun i promise"

"No thank you, i'll have fun without drinking" i shake my head refusing. 

everybody in here seems to be having fun, everybody is laughing and going wild on the dance floor, seems like they're going wild as if there is no tomorrow, i wonder how does it feel to go wild and not care at all what everyone around you is going to say, i wish if i knew. Scarlette asked me to follow her to the garden so i did, then she called out some girl.

"Hey Scarlette, so glad that you made it to the party and you must be Jenna, i'm danielle, Danielle Hale" she smiled, she was beautiful. Everyone could see that.

"Yup That's me" i gave her a smile "it's nice to meet you Danielle" and Greeted her back, Danielle seems really nice and fun to be around with.

"Come on follow me, the others are sitting in the corner over there"

oh others? and now i'm meeting even more new people, gosh i don't know how to feel about this, i don't know if this is good or bad, i don't know if i should be excited or not, i mean what if they won't like me? what if they'll think i'm weird, cause i got used to people thinking that i'm such a weird person, i'm so nervous right now that i can feel my body is starting to tremble.

Scarlette greeted everyone and introduced me to them, they all seemed nice and i think they don't think that i'm weird, well till now but i'm hoping that won't even change. then something caught my eyes, Adam, Adam Mccole from my math class was sitting with them, he was attractive, i must admit. i bet everyone in this party can see how charming he looks, he had that amazing dark black hair, and his eyes they were brown that seemed to be shining in some strange way, i mean in a beautiful strange way. 

time passed by so fast and it was Almost 12:00PM and i was surprised with the fact that my mum didn't call me yet or texted me, i was so tired and i couldn't wait to go back home so i told Scarlette that i wanted to go home and she said okay since she was tired too.

the drive back home was silent, we were both tired, and i can tell that Scarlette was so tired that i was afraid if we won't make it home safe cause i can tell that she can barely keep her eyes open. 

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as soon as i walked into my house i was hoping mum wouldn't complain about coming home late.

"Did you have fun sweetheart?" i heard my mum's voice coming from the living room, she's still awake which was such a surprise to me

"yeah, it was such a great night, thanks for letting me" i gave her a smile and went straight to my room to remove my make-up and brush my teeth and then wear such comfy clothes and jumped into my love's arms, i'm talking about my bed.

i decided to text Scarlette and thank her for this night it actually made me feel better 

"Just wanted to make sure if you're okay and thank you for tonight it was actually such a great night, so thank you and goodnight :)x"

i threw my phone away and closed my eyes hoping for a good day tomorrow.

-Monday Morning-

do you ever just wanna stay in bed and sleep for the rest of the day? or maybe for a few more days? you know the feeling when you're just too tired and you don't wanna leave your bed, but you're forced to, sometimes i wonder why do i only feel this way on a monday morning, why don't i feel this way on Tuesday mornings or Wednesday, but yeah i just hate monday, i really do, even though some people say that monday mornings are the start of a new day and a new week, and they're beautiful but i totally disagree with these kind of people.

i got out of bed and went straight to my bathroom, took a shower, brushed my teeth, then i prepared myself and went to the kitchen grabbed something to eat and then went to school.

8:30 AM - Math Class

ugh how i hate math class, i mean all i learned from math is that i hate it, this is gonna sound awkward but my hate for math is bigger than Nicki minaj's ass, okay i'm talking bullshit right now.

Adam walked into class early this time which is surprising, he looked so beautiful with that dark black hair and those beautiful brown eyes. His eyes were the colour of hot cocoa, sprinkled with tiny flecks of gold like mini marshmallows. Adam was sitting beside me and that made me go all nervous again, Relax Jenna he's just a boy, he won't bite.

"You Must be Jenna, Scarlette's friend right? you sat with us at the party" Adam said with a smile that blow me away and in fact he remembers my name, and he noticed me yesterday which was weird because i don't remember him looking at me, not even once.

"yeah, and you must Adam" i can feel my cheek are turning red and i should keep it all together and not dare to do anything awkward.

"well, it's nice to meet you Jenna" and again with that smile that keeps on blowing me away and oh my god his dimples, i didn't even notice before that he had dimples but now i did.

At Night :

I decided to take my diary and write everything that i'm keeping inside, My Diary is the only thing that i could tell everything well it's not like my diary is a person or a human being but i wish if it was, i mean imagine having person in your life that is your diary, that person that you could trust and let out everything out of your heart without having the fear if they'd tell anybody, yeah i bet that would be amazing. So i took my pen and started writing: 

" Dear Diary .. 

help me dear diary, i'm lost and confused, i don't know if it's the right time for me to open up for people, but something is telling me that it is. I'm too afraid of getting hurt like before, i'm too afraid of having my old friend "depression" back. But something is telling me that the old sad Jenna is gone, and that it's her time now, dear diary how wonderful would it be if i knew if it's the right time or not, dear Diary do you think this year, is the beginning of a new life? the new life that i've been living in my dreams, the happiness that i've dreamed of and hoped that one day i would be able to feel."

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Hope you enjoyed this Chapter although it took so long to be complete cause lately a lot has been going on and i didn't have time so i'm so sorry everyone and i'll try my best to not take so long to write the next chapter :D x 

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