My family and I now live in an apartment, it's not that small but it's enough for 3 persons, it has 3 bedrooms, a kitchen, 2 bathrooms and a salon. I unpacked my stuff and placed all of my clothes in my closet and hang some of the dresses and then I decided to unpack my personal stuff, you know like your favorite books, your journals and your pictures … , etc.
while i was looking through the pictures, i found a picture of me, dad, mum and my brother Alex. it hurts because we looked so happy back in those days when dad really did love and took care of us, i really miss having my dad around, i miss being his little girl but i got sick of watching him coming back all drunk and shit. he gets drunk a lot that sometimes it makes my mum cry and whenever she starts crying he starts screaming at her and throwing some of the stuff on the wall. all of those days were like nightmares to me and my brother, we couldn't be a perfect family, we never actually had such as a family day or anything like that and i hated that. sometimes i wish if i could have my dad back but not the one who gets drunk a lot and beat the shit out of my mother, but the one who used to call me his princess, the one who used to take me out and buy some candy and tell me stories before i go to sleep.
when i was done cleaning my room, mum asked me and my brother to get dressed cause we're having dinner outside, me and my brother got so excited so we both got dressed as fast as we could. i wore my Nirvana shirt and my black jeans and my white converse and did my hair as a messy bun and then we head-out to this fancy Italian restaurant. we ordered our food, mum got herself a frutti di mare pizza, my brother ordered a Margherita pizza and i got myself a mixed sauce pasta.
the food was perfect. we spent the night talking and laughing as a family, we never actually did have something like this before, we never had fun and laughed as a family before, but dad was always missing and it hurts. mum paid the food and we went straight back home and slept, although i couldn't sleep cause tomorrow is such a big day for me, it's the first day at school. i spent my night thinking about how tomorrow is going to be until i fell asleep.
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Fiksi PenggemarWe all fell in love before and got hurt a lot, we all decided to give up and chose to stay alone to not get hurt or hurt the people around us. But everything changes when you meet that one person, but it be won't like the first time you fell in love...
