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Amalia's p.o.v.
Last night shouldn't have happened, I mean I wanted it to happen. Well at least I think I did? I don't know what I want right now but that wasn't it at all.
"Last night was amazing," Juan says sneaking up behind me and giving me a kiss on my cheek making me jump "you startled me" I say with a nervous laugh
"You feeling okay?" He asks putting both his hands on my shoulders as he comes in front of me I stare at both his hands and nod and smile nervously "yea, why wouldn't I be?" I ask trying to sound normal
"You're acting a little weird... look if I did anything wrong I'm-" he starts saying
"No you were fine it's just it was my first time you know? But trust me it's fine everything is fine" I tell him with a smile but deep down I kind of regretted it ever happening.
"Are you sure?" He asked again concerned I nod again "positive" I answer attempting to sound more sure of myself this time.
"Well you know I was thinking we're still gonna be here for another day maybe we can actually try and attempt the date we had post poned last night, what do you say?" He says giving me a smile.
I nod "sounds great" I tell him with a smile
"Perfect, I'll be by your room at around 8 o'clock?"
I nod "that's fine"
"Great see you then" he says giving me a kiss and walking away
I start freaking out again.
What am I doing?
Why would I give myself to a man that I don't even know if I can trust?
I don't want to hurt him but I don't want to continue doubting him and myself.
In order to have a healthy relationship there needs to be trust, and I don't know if I can trust him with the amount of beautiful women that he meets on daily basis not to mention women that are his age and way prettier than me.
I want something with him but I don't want to get hurt in the process. I guess I just have to stop worrying and trust that he won't hurt me.
Times like these I miss my moms advice but for obvious reasons I can't really talk to her.
Im just going to have to trust my gut feeling on this one and see how this date goes.
** hi guys I know this chapter sucks but I'm trying to get back to writing again after months, y'all vote and comment yalls thoughts!**
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