Is it a CURSE? [Deku Angst]

DEKU Part Five

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Deku's POV
Auntie Mitsuki wrapped our burns I was lucky that it didn't burn my shirt or they would of saw my cuts. I tried to tell Mitsuki about mom but I ended up crying so Touya explained it to her even though he still cried. We walked back to the apartments and everyone who lived there was still outside the fire was out but our apartment and the one next and under ours was burnt. The firefighters found mom but she was dead... The person next to us stayed with our other neighbor and the one under us decided to stay at a hotel before it was built Dad also found a hotel he didn't let us stay it was to expensive he told us "Come bake to the apartmentwhen its rebuilt"... Me and Touya stayed in an Alley. Touya decided to dye his hair black. I got more depressed I had cuts all over my arms and some on my leg. Me and Touya walked to school every morning.

3 weeks later

Still Deku's POV
The Apartment was rebuilt and were walking there right now. We walked in the apartment and Dad was in the Kitchen the house looked empty there weren't alot of stuff after it was burned down. Once we got to our room there was nothing there it was empty with a carpet but the bathroom was better it had all its normal stuff and a med kit well it doesn't have towels or toothbrushes but it's fine. I place my bag in my room and Touya leaves to go get some pillows and blankets and clothes. I go down stairs and I see dad drinking I get mad I'm angry at him he killed mom it was his fault. I decide to scream at him "it's your fault! Its your fault shes dead! I hate you!" He looks at me with hate he stepped towards me and grabbed me by the neck I start crying. He tells me "why don't you shut the hell up brat I didn't kill her it's your fault she was trying to defend a useless kid like you she tried to kick me out because of you and I couldn't stop the fire so shut the hell up!" I yelp as he breathes fire on my shoulder and to my chest but then I hear someone scream "STOP!" And I hear dad scream a little and drops me. Touya burnt his arm a little and grabbed my arm and pulled me upstairs. He says "Are you Okay!?" I nod slightly and I hug him and start crying.

6 years later

Deku's POV
I'm in 5th grade and 12 years old Touyas in 9th grade and 17 years. Everyone calls me Deku they all know what it means "Worthless Loser" they all know I've known everyone in the class for a while except for maybe 3 students but they all hate me. Especially Kachan. But I always smile I always laugh I do it to hide my pain. Well anyways it hurts thinking about Kachan I've been thinking about getting surgery for the disease but I've decided if it gets too bad I will. Not that it's not bad now. I wear a mask at school and before lunch I dump out and petals in the mask so I can take it off for lunch, not that I even eat I usually write in one of my notebooks I have 7 notebooks currently 1 is like my diary were I write about my abuse my moms death my depressed and stuff like that, and 2 of them are about heros, And I have 3 about all the people I meet basically classmates and other people, finally the last one is on all my school stuff. Writing in my notebooks are like a hobby and for my mumbling it's just a habit. But back to what I was saying, they all hate me. I have cuts all over my body most are white lines under more white lines but you can still see all the blood on the new ones. And for dad he tells at us and sometimes throws glass bottles at us but that's all. Touya knows about my cutting he hired a therapist for me shes nice but I haven't told her that dad abuses us. Reo and his gang told me to go hang my self I've been thinking about it maybe I'll do it tomorrow. Well anyways I'm at lunch right now oh I was probably mumbling. Well it's time to go to class. Once school is over I walk home and I see Kachan I wave at him with a smile but he just rolls his eyes and walks away. I head to a store and buy rope and then I head home to see Touya opening the door with our house key that we keep under a flower pot I wave at him and he smiles and waves back once I get to the door I say "Hi Touya how was school" he says "ehhh good you know how people tease me for being short" I say "ah I see" he says "well anyways how was your day" I say "well it was the same as always I guess" he says "well anyways let's go inside I have a lot of homework and you probably do too" he opens the door for me. At night I get up and grab the rope I make it in to a nuse and I get a chair and stand on it. I tie the nuse to a hook on the ceiling and I write a note in my diaryish notebook it say "I'm sorry Touya tell dad I'm sorry too if he even cares please tell Auntie Mistuki and your mom Rei I cared about them deeply especially you and please tell Kachan it's not his fault and I'm sorry Bye- Love Izuku" I then put the notebook on the floor by the chair and I stand on the chair again and put the rope on my neck.

I take a breath and I smile a real smile and then I kick the chair...

Touya's POV
I hear a chair fall right next to me and wake up. I look up and see Izuku I start crying but I burn the rope and he falls to the floor smiling. I untie the rope around his neck and I get my phone out and I call 911. When the arrive I carry him to the ambulance and they take him away. I go to our apartment Dads in the living room mad. I'm crying and I go back upstairs to put shoes on and I see his notebook on the floor I read his note and I just hope that he wont die and I close his notebook and I put my shoes on. I walk all the way to the hospital and when I get to Izukus hospital room hes awake a run and hug him. He cries into my shoulder as I cry into his. He tells me "I'm sorry" and I say "it's fine but please don't do it again" he just nods as we hug. We finally let's go and says "hey Touya can I get the surgery well were here I don't like Kachan anymore so I might as well get it.

Deku's POV
I woke up in the hospital and I'm hugging Touya. When we finally let go I ask "hey Touya can I get the surgery well were here, I don't like Kachan anymore so I might as well get it". I don't know why I asked that something just snapped in me and I realize that Kachan hates me and I don't love him well I love him as a friend but not as a lover. Touya says "yes please do, do it before it gets to bad!" The only reason I didn't want to do it was because if you get the surgery you lose all the memories with the person that the victim loved. But I don't love Kachan so I'll get it. After the surgery I still remembered Kachan but they said they did the surgery so they took an ex-ray and I still had it the flowers started growing again but bigger so they did the surgery again but it was still there. The doctors did research and they said "you would have the disease until you fall in love with someone else and they return your feelings". They said "it might be dangerous to fall in love with someone else if you get older though because the disease is getting worse and being with that person for more than a year you might die". When they said I might die I just thought about earlier when I tried to commit suicide. And I kept thinking about what if I had died...

Thanks for Reading I've worked on this all day talking breaks now and then you know to remember my ideas ant that, but hope your having a good day and Bye! ❤❤❤