Is it a CURSE? [Deku Angst]

DEKU Part Fifteenth

Sorry it always takes forever for me to post but I want to thank all of you for your support and for reading this story I wanted to thank you all for 3k! It really means a lot to me! Okay now on with the story.

Deku's POV
I've been waiting to get a call back, but I got bored so I started looking through some boxes I have from about 9 years ago I find a couple pictures and I find my old laptop in a box, well its not that old its not like a big box it looks like a normal laptop but it doesn't seem to work that good, ill try fix it up later. After a couple minutes pass I hear the phone ring, I run into the other room to answer it and sure enough its Touya, I say "Hello!" joyfully and he says "Hey, sorry about them, Togas a little nosey" I say "Its fine, no worries!" Touya then says "okay good, and I was asking you about how you've been doing?" I then say "Oh yeah, umm, I'm okay I guess, Da- I mean 'Hes' in jail now" he says "really!? Well I'm glad, what about school?" I then say "It the same as always I guess, not different, I've got better at piano, and Reo- umm he's been worse, and I- umm never mind, how are you? Become a villain yet?" Touya says "Ha, yeah I'm in a villain group now. And piano? Using Inko~chans old portable one yeah, oh wait, are you living alone? and please tell me what you where going to say it sounded important. " I say "oh umm, yeah I'm using moms piano, and yeah I'm living alone, Auntie Mitsuki is put under my guardian now, and um, I- umm" he then says "Oh well I'm glad its Mitsuki and not some other rando in the apartment building, but please tell me" I then say "Heh, well I umm, I-I broke the promise! I'm sorry!" Touya then stays quiet for a moment and then says "you mean when you, umm attempted to, umm" I knew he was trying not to believe I tried again, but It happened and more then once. I then say "mhm" confirming that's what I was going to say, he then says "what, no, no you didn't, ha you couldn't have right?" I just say "i did" and he then says "No, no, no, When?! Why? I shouldn't have left you by yourself!" I wish people wouldn't blame myself for what they didn't do, its my fault, its all my fault. I then say "Its not your fault! You didn't know! It's my fault! I'm sorry!" I knew I shouldn't have tried to kill myself all those times but, I never know if I'm going to try again. He then says "No! Why didn't you call me sooner! I could of come back! I could of been there for you!" I can tell he's crying, and I hear that girl again, Toga says "Dabi why are you yelling? Your crying again?" I then say "Hey I have to go, Its not your fault okay? Bye..." I hang up, I should have never called earlier, I should of told myself to just forget!
Forget?
Thats it! I just need to forget him, and he forgets needs to forget me, but how can I do that he just remembered me. I start muttering ending up getting angry with myself, from still being emotional from earlier. All of a sudden  I get an idea 'A Quirk!' I need to get someone with a quirk, a quirk to do with memory, a quirk that allows the user to erase someone's memory, or to erase someone from there mind, to make someone forget completely about the other and the other way around. I can get them to get him to forget me and then get me to forget him! I then stop mumbling and write this down so I remember. Oh I forgot to mention I found 9 fresh new notebooks in a box and 3 that I had wroten in, or i assume that they where mine. The other 9 weren't completely brand new some of the pages were folded and crumble, well others there where scribbles and stain marks, which I assume was tears...
When I would sit next to Touya on the bed after school I would write in my notebooks which im glad didn't the fire was stopped before they got to the shelf with these and my 3 All Might figures which if I did have any other they probably  burned along with my bed. Well it didn't completely burn, I still have it, but its ripped and has burn marks, being able to see inside the mattress while the bed frame just got a little burnt still there, now that I look at it its actually really small, compared to me right now I still have to couch in here though, but the only time I use it is to sleep sometimes I don't like to sit on it or anything because that's where mom used to always sit if she wasn't cleaning up the kitchen or living room because of dad, he was never even around why did he come back from over seas he should have just stayed there, all he did when he came back was drink or smoke and half the time he wasn't even home and when he was he still drank or slept, I wonder if its true, that drinking get rid of your problems. I wonder if he wanted to get rid of me and mom, I wonder if he even knew who Touya was, half the kids at school didn't even know who he was, I wonder if dad is thinking about me, why am I calling him dad i don't know him, Hisashi
I continue looking through the boxes and I find some pictures and old clothes, I check the time. I should go to sleep, and I change from my school uniform and lay down, soon enough I fell asleep.

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