Preferences will be back but I needed to rant a bit. Please comment, telling me how I can deal with this..
It's the most terrible feeling when literally no guy at school likes you. Especially your crushes. Last year I liked this guy named santino. He went out with me for a week then when he broke up with me, he told me he only did it cause he was dared to. I'm now in JH and none of my crushes even give me the time of day. I feel so unwanted. I just want to be able to hug and kiss somebody, to walk to my bus with them and to take cute selfies with. I want my Instagram bio to say taken with someone's name next to it, for someone to actually like me. I've been called so many things by my crushes. The most hurtful one was when the guy I really liked called me annoying. I took selfies with him and I hugged him a few times. I never meant to be annoying but I guess that's how he perceived me. The best day of my life was when my crush Justin hugged me at the 7th grade dance. I'll never forget that. But now he's with sierra and taking so many cute selfies with her, telling her he loves her and all that. It hurts me so bad but I can't ever say anything because I simply know I'll never have a chance with Justin. I wouldn't have a chance with any of my crushes if I was the last girl in the world. I hate the way I look, I hate my personality, I hate how no guys like me. Theyve either got girlfriends, laugh at the thought of me being their girlfriend, or they like my friends. So may of my crushes like my friends and it hurts me deeply. I'm so insecure. I just want to be loved. I want to be wanted. I want to go to bed with a smile on my face cause I got a cute goodnight text. But I'll never get that. Because nobody likes me. I've waited and waited and waited. My best friend says that nobody likes her yet she has so many guys asking her out its unreal. I don't think she knows how bad I want someone to ask me out. Anybody. But guess when that'll happen? Never.
