Falling Back Together

*6* (Jungkook's memories)

I am gonna put a warning here. This story contains mature content as per mentioned in tags.
This chapter contains self harm, suicide attempt, cheating and mentions of domestic abuse.☡
If anyone is not comfortable with it or it may trigger you please feel free to skip. This story only uses BTS as character figure and has nothing to do with idols or their personal lives in reality.

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Jungkook is having a mental breakdown, his breath is getting heavier as he looks through the photos in his hands. His relationship with Kihyun has been rough lately. Its been almost four months since Jungkook lost his virginity and ever since there bond was getting stronger. Jungkook have been spending even more time with Kihyun ever since his finals ended. He started as a part timer at same cafe as Kihyun, the owner lady being overly joyed and so were his parents. Everything was just perfect but after that night it just went down hill...

Jungkook and Kihyun were just hanging out after work hours as usual but then it got heated up. They made out and Jungkook suggested going to his home again. His parents were out of town again. They had sex that night. It was passionate not as smooth as their first time but a week after that Kihyun started being distant. He would hang out with his friends, go club without Jungkook. He even started getting drunk too often. He used to drink but not that much. Kihyun was totally besides himself. Jungkook even saw him with this girl a lot and he started getting insecure. He decided to confront Kihyun about it but he denied it all. One time when Jungkook tried to stop him from going to club they had a huge arguement, Kihyun blamed Jungkook. He called him fake and what not. Jungkook slapped Kihyun... that was not his Kihyun. The Kihyun he fell for is no more there but Jungkook can still see in his eyes the love he craved. And Jungkook stayed there for long after Kihyun left. He did not meant to slap, it happened and he felt like utter shit. Even though when Jungkook slapped Kihyun,the youger met a hard slap and was slammed onto the wall but Jungkook could not blame his boyfriend he shoukd nit have slapped him first. After that day Jungkook skipped work for almost a week, his guilt eating away at him but Kihyun did not even call. Jungkook developed the habbit of cutting himself he needed to subside his demons. He could not even eat, was he really that ugly? Even his parents noticed it but the one who had to did not. Jungkook had seen Kihyun at some of his worst times but this was not like him.

But now looking at these pictures in his lap...

Jungkook came from work sooner than usual, Kihyun had not come today. Jungkook tried calling him but he would not pick up. He asked the owner lady but she knew nothing either. His father handed him a parcel that arrived for him. It said Kihyun on it. Jungkook was happy... he really missed small gestures and efforts from his boyfriend. He headed straight to his bedroom, no more tired. He hurriedly opened the package and there was a letter. He opened it giddily but it was not from Kihyun. It was not his handwriting, he started reading.

Dear Jungkook,

You don't know me but I just wanted to help you. You deserve better than a cheating partner. Kihyun is cheating on you since more than a month now. I don't want you to get more hurt. I know you won't believe me so here is the evidence. I am sorry you had to go through this.

The words went like a stab to his heart. This could not be true he thought. Kihyun loved him... it was just a fight that got physical and it happenes, does it not? He has seen it with his parents a lot and they are still together, aren't they? Kihyun loves him. His eyes still hold that love. Jungkook stared at the paper folder that was in the package. He had no strength to open it nor any courage. Jungkook took deep breaths. Its just a prank he told himself, still hoping for something from his love to be in it. He opened it with shaky hands, and there were pictures. Pictures of Kihyun and that girl... them kissing... making out in a car... them naked in a bed... another of them naked but its Kihyun's room now... again them... his Kihyun...