Falling Back Together

*10* (Jungkook's Memories)

Warning ☡
Mentions of rape, this chapter contain bullying.
Please avoid this chapter if you don't approve of such things or if it is triggering for you.
This story has nothing to do with BTS members or their personal lives.

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"Will you stop staring?" Jungkook looks at Namjoon who has somewhat between annoyed and amused expression.

"I am not staring"Jungkook says.

"Dude do you have a crush on Kim Taehyung or something?"Namjoon says. Jungkook stares again at the direction where Taehyung is sitting along with his boyfriend, Hyuk. Though Taehyung looks very stiff there but he does not resist at all against Hyuk's hold on him. He looks back at Namjoon who looks smugly at Jungkook.

"No I don't" But Jungkook keeps staring in Taehyung's direction. Jungkook remembers the last weekend with Yoongi, he had woken up next to Taehyung, he looked so peaceful something Jungkook has not seen on the boy's face ever since. Yoongi insisted on having breakfast together, he and Jimin seemed to have hit it off well even when they were sober. After that day, Jungkook had imagined his face multiple times after waking up, his calmed expression stuck in his mind.

"Sure you don't. Now stop staring" Namjoon says in a tone that makes Jungkook stop staring at once. They are sitting in cafeteria, Namjoon has been very persistent on lunches so now Jungkook skips dinner instead, not like anyone would know. So here he is, having his lunch with his hyung who takes time out of his schedule just to make sure Jungkook eats his lunch and even take him out to eat after library hours. Library is open til 6 in evening on weekdays so Jungkook spends his time after college there, at his dorm he can't focus on studies much so whenever Namjoon joins him at library Jungkook is forced to eat. How much more pathetic could he become?!

"Hello, earth to Jungkook" Namjoon waves hands in front of Jungkook's face and his attention is brought back to present.

"Sorry hyung, I was just thinking" Jungkook apologizes for what exactly even he does not know.

"And you do that quite often" Namjoon says taking sip from his coffee. "But about that we will talk later, for now tell me whats with Kim Taehyung?"

"With Kim Taehyung? What about him?" Jungkook tries to sound unaffected but he knows what Namjoon is getting at. Jungkook has met Taehyung often as they live on same floor, and Taehyung comes to library often too. Taehyung is kind whenever they meet but Jungkook could barely bring himself to talk with him cause everytime Jungkook is met with memories from that evening whenever he is around the said male.

"You've been glaring at Hyuk" Namjoon isn't wrong. Jungkook avoids the conversation, taking it further would only give him unnecessary thoughts, he just takes another bite from his lunch. He can feel Namjoon's eyes on him but he has decided to avoid conversations on these topics. "Anyways how were your exams?" Jungkook could not be more thankful for change of the topic.

"They were fine. But I didn't think mid semisters would be that tough" Jungkook says.

"But you studied hard" Najoon says, he has seen the younger work hard for exams.

"Maybe. I could have done better. I mean only had I not spent time on gym which is also importantdad warned me not to miss, but if only I had studied on weekends a bit more it could have been better. Its not like I will fail right. They were not that difficult and I will surely pass. Yeah I will" Jungkook rambles. He has had hard time thinking about exams and marks, what if he does not do good. What will his father say? "I mean I must have done better..."

"Jungkook" Namjoon cuts him between his ramblings, "Its alright, just breath. Deep breaths. It will turn out fine"

Jungkook can feel his head pain in those thoughts. He has been thinking about it a lot past few days.He holds his head in his hands forgetting about everything. He want to ramble on and on about his worries, it has been long since he talked much with anyone except Namjoon and his other two hyungs. He has had little time to make friends, he joined the art club for which he got scolded by his parents so he had not been able to participate in any of the activities either, this exam was like a chance for him to prove that he is more than what everyone think he is and most importantly he wants to talk about it but what if Namjoon thinks the same about him? what if his hyungs get tired because of his behaviour?or what if he did something wrong, or said something wrong? what if they feel disgusted with him?