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CHAPTER 1

Sorry for the typos and wrong grammars.

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Laying in my bed, reading books with headphones on. Pretending like it's a normal day, even though it's my birthday. Pretending that I'm okay even though I'm not.

Like bruh? How can I be okay,if my family doesn't even remember that this is the day that they had me. But yeah...never mind. I'm used to it naman na, it's been 7 years naman na since they became like that, ngayon ang 7th year.

So i'd rather spend my day with my books than those people who made me experience pain .

"Lyndzei!!! Aalis na kami! I-lock mo yung main door kung aalis ka." Napairap na lang ako sa hangin. See? My Mom can't even remember it , at what did she say? Aalis sila? Haha nice.

I stood up from my bed went near the window and watch the car slowly disappear from my sight.

So it's me and myself again. Should I go out? And celebrate my birthday at least.

Yeah. I should.

Geh Zeil, kausapin mo sarili mo. Matino yan.

I grabbed my keys and went out. Syempre I locked the door, baka may magalit pa sakin.

I can't help but to feel sad because of their treatment. but my hand automatically slapped my face.

Gosh Zeil! Huwag mong gawing yan sa sarili mo, if they're giving you pain make yourself happy.

Dumretso na lang ako sa mall, I parked my car and went straight to the book store and look for books that can interest me.

Gumaan ang agad ang loob ko ng makapasok ako sa book store.There are so many new published books, so many choices.

I picked the books that caught my interest and went directly to the counter. while the cashier is busy with my books and I made myself busy by looking at the cute journal at the shelf beside me.

My phone suddenly started vibrating, kaya kinuha ko yun sa bag ko and look at it to see who is calling me.

"Ma?" I greeted her.

"Umuwi ka na, we're going at your Tita Grace's house?" what? Himala isasama nila ako.

"Hindi po ba pwedeng kayo na lang ?" I said while getting my wallet because the cashier's already done.

"4,000 po ma'am." I handed her my card and kinuha ko na rin yung binili ko.

"Hindi pwede. Gusto kang makita ng Lola mo, baka magalit yun kapag hindi ka namin sinama." oh? I miss Lola too.

"Kaya ka lang naman naming isasama, kasi request niya, tsaka matagal na kayong hindi nagkita next time sasabihin kong busy ka sa school works mo. Alam ko namang ayaw mo sumama eh. Sige na umuwi ka na, or much better sumunod ka na lang ,mauuna na kami dun. Alam mo pa naman yung daan diba?" dagdag niya. Hindi. Hindi ko na tanda.

" Sige po ma. Susunod na lang po ako." bahala na.

"O'siya, bye na. Alis na kami. Mag-ingat ka dahil inaasahan ka ng Lola mo." she said, then ended the call.

Dahil inaasahan ka ng Lola mo...

Dahil inaasahan ka ng Lola mo...

Dahil inaasahan ka ng Lola mo...

I immediately felt the pain in my chest, pero binalewala ko yun. Binalik ko yung cellphone ko sa bag and faced the cashier.

The cashier handed back my card. Kinuha ko yun at nagpasalamat. Lumabas na rin ako ng store.

Akala ko naalala niyo na. Akala ko gusto niyo na ako makasama.

Akala ko lang pala.

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