All I want is your love

Chapter 29

    “I can't hold it anymore, I can't take this anymore. What have I done to him to deserve this?
     I'm beautiful I know that, I can make any man fall for me if I want to. Then why can't I make Usman fall for me?

      Zainab once answered this question to you Aisha, simply because you guys are not meant for each other.

   The logical voice in my head lectures.

     I nodded “yes maybe She is right, maybe Usman don't deserve my love, am far worth than begging for his love all day long,
I don't deserve to suffer anymore.
       No woman deserves to suffer in the hands of any man, we are precious creatures that should be treasured, we are more precious than a gold thats hard to find even deep under the sea.
I am no bird; and no net ensnares
me: I am a free human being with
an independent will. I can't be forever locked up in Usman’s house.
     I don't at all deserve Usman’s torture and maltreatments, I'm a woman and women are known for pride, class, dignity and all that... Where do I seem to be keeping mine? I threw it all away because of Him? The one who doesn't even deserves my love? Oh god no!
      I've done nothing but wrong throughout my life, I took the wrong decision, I shouldn't have married Usman, I should be in school by now and not married in this godforsaken home with that demon I call my husband. Its time to make things right Aisha, its time for me to show Usman who Aisha is really made up. Is time to show you I don't need you beside me anymore and its time to man up and move on like every woman should have. No man deserves a single tear drop from any woman our tears are the most expensive liquid that has ever lived on earth. Love is not blind, people are, love is not crazy people are. I've been dump, crazy and blinded and for that I was a fool. But  nomore of that now, I won't take that nonsense anymore.  I won't allow Usman or any other man in this world to ever cause pain to me, never will I sell my pride to any man, never will I ever beg for a man's love. Thanks to life for the valuable lesson it taught me.

I smiled at myself in the mirror and wiped off my tears. I changed into my night gown and slept peacefully for the first time ever since I stepped a foot into Usman’s house.

      The following day, I woke up as early as possible and prepared his bath water and breakfast everything was ready before he woke up. I kept his bath water by the door for him. Immediately he came out with his full bucket of water in his hand, he saw his bath water by the door. He gabed his mouth widely never did he expected this. He saw me sitted by the dining area having my breakfast.

     He gave me one of his deadly glare that always got me frightened and I smiled at him rubbinng it to his face I aiint scared of him again anymore. I can see how shocked he was. He just carried the bucket and returned back to his room with a questioning expression on his face.  And some minutes later he came out hurriedly pulling his trousers I was still sitted on the dining. He sat beside me and glared at me waiting for me to serve him breakfast.

    I ignored him and continued with what I was doing. “Well? Are you not going to serve me breakfast?” He yells in the tone that got me frightened always but to his suprise I didn't shiever or did anything closely to that I just continued with what I was doing.

     “I'm talking to you!” He roared. My silence exaspertes him the more.

       “Don't you have hands to do so yourself?” I questioned him in a serious tone I've never once used with him.

    “What? You're talking back now? You insolent dog.” He state angrily.

      “Noo Mr, I'm not talking back I'm just telling you what needs to be told.” On saying this, I stood up and made my way to my room. He quickly followed my back and pulled me by the hair I felt a sharp pain that almost made me wanna scream but just so to piss him off I decided not to squeal and I snatch my hair away from his grasp bravely.

   He laughed humorously, “I like this super woman.” He was about saying something when his phone started ringing inside his pocket. He brought it out and answered “okay I'll be there as soon as possible.” He turned to me and smirked and I smirked back he was morethan shocked, his jaw can't help but drop. “We're not done yet.” He points out and quickly went to his room, dressed up and went off.

        I sighed. I've never once imagined I have a tough side too never once have I imagined I can talk back to him, I never knew what I was capable of because of how I've been underestimating myself. I winced to my room and brought out my saving box, I counted the money in it and it was upto 70k. I sighed relieved, atleast I can buy a UK used iphone 5s. I changed my dress and went out from my house for the very first time. Lagos is really such a beautiful place with lots of people. I stopped a taxi and told him to take me to any communication he knew close by.

       We arrived to one big communication in just 30mins and I asked him to wait for me and so he did. I walked over and asked for a UK used iphone 5s after pricing, I got it at 50k with earpiece, charger and even a power bank, I welcomed back my sim card and quickly went back to the taxi, he brought me back home I paid him and went inside. I connected my phone whilst it was charging, I cooked lunch and set the dinning and tidy up everywhere.

     After that, I went back and took my bath again, I dressed into shorts and blouse. I combed my hair spreading them over my shoulders and applied a bit makeup. I brought out my phone and saved mom's, Zainab’s and aunt Fatima’s phone number, thank god I have their numbers off hand.

        In less than an hour, Usman came back. Just as expected he roared my name. I hoist up and gathered a lot of confidence before I made my way to his call and brought my phone with me. On reaching to my door, I saw him sitted by the dining table I stepped forward and stopped few inches infront of him. I brought out my phone and held it so he can see it clearly. I crossed one leg with the other before folding my arms “yes” I answered in an I-dont-care tone chewing my gum just as how prostitutes does it.

    His eyes dilated and jaw dropped. “Aisha?” He questioned my name. And “Yes” I answered confidently. “Haven't I warned you never to dress like that? Am not interested in looking at your black body” he explains rudely.

     “You did Mr. but I decided to dress like this today since its my house right? And I didn't dress like this for you to see so don't mis interpret my intentions”

       “Wow!” he exclaimed surprisingly. “So the wings you've been growing are finally out now, I like it. I'll enjoy kicking your ass very very well”

        “You won't ever kick my ass ever again, 'cuz this is not the Aisha you knew before” I hissed.

     “WTF! Did you just hissed at me?” he questioned  losing his temper.

    “Do I need to repeat it again so you can hear it or are you deaf?”

    I really never knew I could talk back at him like this!

      Go girl! go! the logical voice in my head praised and hailed me.

   “That tears it now you filthy wretch.” He stood up and removed his belt coming over to where I was standing. On seeing this I held my phone into the thin air and used my other hand to stop him. “One more step, one more step Usman and I swear on my mother's life I will call your mom and tell her all, I mean all that has been happening in this house, about you bringing Humairah and about the pregnancy, the miscarriage and all of that. You know vividly, better than I how your mom's heart is, so fragile” I made a baby face.

        “On hearing this am sure her heart can't take the demon and liar her only son has turned into. She'll eventually have an attack which will lead her to a painful and slow death...” I threatened him sounding seriously and rude.