Spellbound Love (Book 1)

Chapter 5

"Time wears her not; she doth his chariot guide;
Mortality below her orb is placed."

-Henry Thoreau

05.

Back in Europe, during 40s, in the kingdom where the princess lives...

The moon shines so bright. It filled the entire place with light. Sounds of the buzzing insects and bubbling brooks are heard. Surrounding the pond of fishes, are the trees of different kinds. One of those is the tree where the two kids stayed, talking under the pearl of the night.

"I wish tomorrow will be an endless verdure. I want to feel the breath of fresh air, smell the divine fragrance of flowers, and have a walk on winding paths all the time listening to the sounds of the beautiful birds and insects," the lady in white gown said while carving a word on the tree.

"Why tomorrow? You should wish an endless verdure for a lifetime," the boy in a scabby hat, seemingly hidebound in appearance, asked to the lady.

"If everyday is happy, I am being unfair. My Dad is faraway. Mother said he's on a great mission. It has been months since he left. I wonder where he is by then."

A drop of tear fell from her eye. She immediately wiped it out.

"It's alright," the boy said. It made the lady look at him. "It's alright to cry. What else can you do to feel satisfied. Let those tears flow down from your eyes. Let your heart release the sadness inside. Let that burden within yourself feel light."

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Notebook. The girl weeps because of her father's absence in her place. The boy told her to cry in order to release the heavy feeling inside her.

Ugh. 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. What was that again?

I think I'm going really bad. But, I can't just afford to visit a psychiatrist.

I crumpled my hair and put the notebook in my bag.

"Avyn Grace Condor? You dreaming again?" Mom called in the kitchen.

"Yep and again," emphasizing the term 'again', "I just forgot it. What a nice game. Really." I jumped off from the bed and walked out of my room.

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Books sat on my table as I flip one of them page by page. These are science and medical books about psychology and stuffs. I wonder what this condition is. I have to be aware instead of doing nothing and just writing what I forget as a dream.

"Dissociative amnesia occurs when a person blocks out certain information, usually associated with a stressful or traumatic event, leaving him or her unable to remember important personal information. With this disorder, the degree of memory loss goes beyond normal forgetfulness and includes gaps in memory for long periods of time or of memories involving the traumatic event."

Traumatic event? Why would I even have amnesia? Did I just had a traumatic event in my life?

Nope, this is not the case. This is way too bad and I think I have never ever experienced something so horrible.

"Lack of sleep?," I think this is the case," not getting enough sleep is perhaps the greatest unappreciated cause of forgetfulness. Too little restful sleep can also lead to mood changes and anxiety, which in turn contribute to problems with memory."

I stretched my arms coz finally I found the answer. I'm sorry but I have to work so forget about it. It doesn't really matter. As long as I still live the same, this doesn't really kill me at all. So, who cares?

But no!. Ugh, why do I dream weird stuffs? What's with the boy and the girl? Am I imagining things that beyond my thinking? Everything is even realistic. Did I just dream about my past life and stuff? Tss, why would I even believe in that? I am a Catholic and I don't believe in damn reincarnation.