Finding

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THE IMPACT OF HER WORDS hit me like a wall. Not that Literature is my Major subject in college; it is Psychology (Which I chose so that I can learn more about the humans and how they process things and most importantly emotions. I also chose it so that I can apply it to my real life, which up till now came to little use) but still ten percent of the spring semester is a lot.

I was the kind of kid that was always very sensitive when it came on grades. It was also because my family was a psycho when it came to studies ( not out of care for me but because they spent their precious money on me and so I could be someone who Hannah Kate could look up to). It would also be because I was home schooled till fifth grade by grandma and even though after fifth grade she moved far from where we used to live I still couldn't bring her down. This is the reason that I and my family were so shocked.

I got a little scolding but that was just a formality because we all knew that I could not have done anything that would make the weather any better. The only possibility was me living near college or well at the college; dorms.

The reason I preferred my house instead of dorms is not that I am very attached to my family or anything it just Is that I always have been a kind of introvert and living in dorms was a big statement. I also didn't want to miss special little things like Hannah and Kate's birthday, Rage's frequent visits, I would even have missed my family's weird habits. I don't really miss anything much not living at college. Not parties or celebrations because I again was an introvert more than an extrovert.

But now seeing the situation it is the only possibility. I just can't miss on to everything because of not being social enough. I won't admit it but I know, deep down that I am truly wasting my precious teen-college years by not getting a full experience.

When I laid out my idea of starting to live in the dorms before my family they approved of it and maybe I, for the first time in my life, was getting support of my parents (even if it was indirect).