Finding

19

I CAME TO THE DORM early and surprisingly Nicole was there sitting on the window seat using her phone.

I came in and sat on my side of the bed than I went to our bathroom and quietly cried there on the floor like a dying eel. After what seemed like a lot of time I came out and Nicole was not present in the room.

I took advantage of this and vedio called home again. It only has been a day and I am homesick already. Rage called me earlier today and after hearing her voice my heart aches for home, for some familiar faces but I am stuck with a dumb roommate and about Lisa and Amy I don't know if we still have anything in common left.

After I waiting for a long time Kate picked up the call and Hannah joined her soon. We only talked for fifteen minutes and they cut off quickly. Half way through I heard mom's voice asking who they were talking to and Hannah said "No one,"

Throughout those fifteen minutes both of them looked distant as though they were talking to no one in particular.

Have they forgotten me already? All those promises they made? What about Lisa and Amy we are friends for almost five years is this not enough? Why am I always left out of the group? I asked myself these questions until I cried myself to sleep.