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march,23th , smthng rare happened , like really rare , i opened up to someone , did it without neither thinkin abt it or nor abt the reaction of the listener , i communicated like my life depended on it literally , i dunno how cuz its been a long ass time since i didnt such a thing like that but the whole conversation wa smoothly going nd i felt comfortable , wut an irony lol uncomfortable feeling comfortable anyway , dunno wut factor or reason made me feel that way but i cant stop  thinking abt the listeners , they made me comfortable , especially this particular girl who's named , u guessed , ZAYNEB , wut are the fcking odds , she even felt like zayneb my ex for a while tho like rlly felt like it , sooo understanding yet can identify the flaw easily , she even has that desire to live just like younger zayneb llol + she's someone that can make u laugh ( kinda ) , balanced too , am i crushing on her , we even discussed my definition of crushin on someone nd i said quote " najamsh ncrushy aala aabd wena naaresh caracterou w najem naaref caracterou ken ki nahki maah" so if im crushin on her i see where its coming from but lets not speed through it , lets give it time nd let it sink for a while , but i kinda have smthng in my guts tellin me u need to keep her around so yea , this is us souhail , jimmy , its the first time we feel overwhelmed by smthng or someone , even jimmy didnt say smthng that offends or completely opposite to wut i think for the first time too , he did the complete opposite , told me to tell her wow , but again i was too overwhelmed that i completely to forget to mention that she told me she crushin on a friend of mine , iknew it was too good to b true , so destiny had to come in nd put me back in my place so i guess it gotta finish with these lines m writing or end up as a simulation in my brain responding to all the wut ifs ill be asking , dnt get me wrong its not bad at least i was able to communicate with someone i dunno especially a girl so ye we gotta look at the bright side here , anyway , we cool bro if u find out in a few days later that u have a thing for her just tell her , but wut if my friend has a thing for her too cuz she never told him , m sure he'll understand so ye as i said if in a few days later u still have a thing for her then go tell her 

btw she's reading the random stuff right , nice