*a month later*
HIM
I wanted to be her support,
To lift her from the claws of her demons,
Momentarily forgetting;i had my own to deal with,
As her battles lasted longer,
My demons changed their tactics,
The voice that wanted me to let go,
Now demanded i let HER go,
The responsibility is not your it said,
The struggle isn't yours,
The battle isn't your own to fight,
Along the way,distate more than confusion,
Even in play, insults more than appreciation,
Stop before you can't go on,
Stop before you drop your stone,
Stop;before we make you.
Soon the initial call to protect now just a reject,
I can't protect her;i can barely protect myself,
Words of doubt resonated my mind,
She deserves more than someone with issues,
She deserves a knight in shining armour,
She deserves better, plucking up courage,
Breaking out of the shell,a decision finally made,
Now all that remains; the execution
The cliff had quickly become our haven,
Smiling she sat down beside me,
Innocently staring at the sea,
Gathering strength,i spoke
"In order to form a pact,
I was willing to upturn any fact,
I know now that it doesn't matter whoever,
That i was looking for but the endeavor,
You or someone else doesnt matter so long us,
My thirst for freedom was quenched thus."
Her face distorted into shock
In that brief moment,a memory came floating back
Her words causing chaos in my already chaotic mind,
"Saying freedom outloud creates an illusion,
Out hopes for it being true;an evasion,
Saying it doesn't mean it exists i know,
But it makes it seem like it should you know?"
These words made me want to undo my decision,
Made me want to smile and call it a sick joke,
Demons of doubt overpowered me and i ran away,
Hopelessly i let her go,
I let go for a better person to catch on,
I let go for a listening ear and a helping hand,
I let go for her real happiness not theoritical,
But the fact remains
I let go
