Sometimes I Write Poems, Sometimes I Write Songs

31. I'm tired

I'm tired of being disappointed.

I'm tired of trying to get your attention.

I'm tired of thinking I'm doing something wrong.

I'm tired of thinking you don't love me.

I'm tired of seeing a demon when I look in the mirror.

I'm tired of feeling like I'm ugly.

I'm tired of getting told I'm not.

I'm tired of arguing over pointless things.

I'm tired of telling you I'm useless.

I'm tired of you telling me I'm wrong.

I'm tired of hearing all these things I don't believe.

I'm tired of the voices around me yelling at the ones in my head.

I'm tired of trying to explain what I think is the truth.

I'm tired of you ignoring me once more.

I'm tired of expecting a different outcome each day.

I'm tired of being left behind.

I'm tired of asking myself how to survive.

I'm tired of telling myself that surviving is a lie.

I'm tired of believing I don't deserve what I've got.

I'm tired of knowing I don't deserve your love no matter what.

I'm tired of judging myself.

I'm tired of finding flaws when I know that there are none.

I'm tired of never letting myself believe my friends.

I'm tired of wishing to die.

I'm tired of wanting to hurt.

I'm tired of wanting to remind myself of who I am.

I'm tired of staring down at my shoes because the view above is scary.

I'm tired of being afraid.

I'm tired of being afraid to lose and lose the people I love and lose myself in the process.

I'm tired of losing myself in the process.

I'm tired of losing the people I love.

I'm tired of losing.

I'm tired of sitting in the same spot every day looking at a screen that will never change.

I'm tired of being surrounded by friends but still feeling surrounded.

I'm tired of knowing I can talk when I need to but never being able to speak.

I'm tired of being blind.

I'm tired of being able to see the faults in people.

I'm tired of being able to see the faults in the world.

I'm tired of being defined by what I see.

I'm tired of looking at the friends of friends and finding enemies.

I'm tired of being jealous.

I'm tired of being angry.

I'm tired of being sad.

I'm tired of pretending I'm something I'm not.

I'm tired of pretending I have nothing to live for.

I'm tired of saying that I feel like I have nothing to live for even though I have friends.

I'm tired of feeling like I'm alone.