If I Were Her (poems)

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"My goodbye letter goes like this:
To the boy who broke my heart: I hope you're happier than you ever thought possible. I hope you get everything you want and I know you deserve it. I want you to know that I have and always will love you, even if I'm no longer here. You're it, my everything. I love you.
To my best friends: Thank you for being there for me through heartbreak and every other problem I've had. Thank you for being there when I needed you and not complaining. It means a lot that you stayed. I'm just sorry that I have to go. I love you forever and always.
To my parents: Thanks for trying to raise me better than this. Thank you for trying to keep me away for the troublesome boys that would break my heart. You missed one though. He got to me really badly. It's not your fault, you taught me how to live with it as long as I did. I stayed longer because of the tolerance you gave me. Thanks for trying. I love you guys.
To my other friends: You hardly knew what was going on in my head. I never really told you guys how I felt. I wanted to save you from all of the late nights of me crying over a boy who would always hurt me. You didn't know what I was doing and I'm sorry I didn't come to you. I love you and hope you find a better friend than me.
To everyone else reading this: You are loved. You are needed and there is someone out there who cannot live without you. You may be thinking that no one would care if you were gone. You are so wrong. There are so many people that would care if you were gone so please never make that decision for yourself. Life can get so hard and so unbearable at times but there are good parts too. You just have to wait for the good days even if you struggle through the bad days. It's going to hurt but in the end, you'll save a lot of people from heartbreak. So do me and everyone else a favor, stay here for awhile. Stay alive for me and everyone who loves you, there are people who love you even if you don't see it, I promise.