Sick and Tired

Restless Night

A/N most of the story is told from Virgil's point of view. If I decide otherwise I'll let you know.

  I lay awake on my bed trying to sleep. I just can't. I don't know why but I've never been good at falling asleep. Usually I have to lay awake and stare at the ceiling for hours before I can fall asleep (even if I fall asleep). Laying down in silence is the worst. You're just stuck there with your thoughts. And if I'm being honest most of mine aren't pleasant.
   I check the time. 3:30am.  I know I should probably go to sleep so I decide to go get a glass of water. I go down to the kitchen quietly making sure I don't wake the others up. Ever since I've been dragged to the light side the other sides have hated me. Although Patton does try to be nice to me I can tell that he's only doing it to not be mean. Logan and Roman are the worst in my opinion. I don't know how innocent Patton can stand those two. With Roman it's usually just nicknames, rude comments, and the occasional punch or two. Though with Logan I know he isn't the best with emotions but he's pretty much a heartless monster. He isn't just verbal like the others are he's physical too. There was one time where I accidentally gave Thomas an anxiety attack and when everyone went to their rooms he barged into my room. He took off his belt and he started beating the hell out of me. I don't know why. We already cleared up that it was an accident but that wasn't stopping him.
   I walk downstairs got myself some water then went back to my room. I laid down on my bed and just calmed myself down. But then I heard it.
Come home Virgie
The voice made my skin crawl.
You know you don't belong here. Everyone hates you
Ever since I left the dark sides they started tormenting me. Of course now they can't get to me but the mental pain is sometimes worse than what the physical pain used to be.
They'll never love you Virgie
  I hated that nickname. It's the one Remus gave me and all the dark sides started calling me that. Except for Deceit. I don't know exactly why but deceit is probably the only reason I'm alive today. He helped me when all the other sides shut me out. He supported me and encouraged me. He's my best friend but now since I'm considered a light side I have to pretend to hate him. He can see right through me. He knows I don't hate him but it still hurts to lie. And now he can't even visit him. I'd love to visit him but one time I tried and let's just say Logan caught me. Just remembering that night made me cry.
Aww does Virgie need a tissue. I don't want to see my baby upset
  I hate that. I realized a few weeks ago that they can spy on me. And I hated being called baby. I'm the youngest in the mind palace. Anxiety was the last side of Thomas to form so I'm the last one created.
  Virgie I miss you. I can't stand this house with my baby sister gone. Who else am I gonna watch cry like a little crybaby after just one punch. Don't worry Virgie soon enough your pain will be greater than just mental.
   What did that mean. Soon my pain will be more than just mental. That doesn't make sense. I feel panic rush over me. My anxiety got worse and worse and I started having a full blown anxiety attack. I noticed my door was open the tiniest bit. I scrambled over to the door as fast as I could and I shut it. When my door is open Thomas can feel my emotions and the last thing I need is to get in trouble. And right when I convinced myself that I closed the door in time I heard an aggressive knock at the door. I curled up in a ball and slid into the corner of my room. I tried to pull myself together but I couldn't. I start crying harder than ever before knowing what's about to happen.