Sick and Tired

Blood, Warnings, and tears

A/N warnings rape, hateful words, mentions of self harm, and mentions of anorexia. Stay safe

Help. I need help.
I can't do anything by my self I'm a worthless piece of shit. I stare at my reflection in the mirror. I can't believe how fat I'm getting. I haven't eaten it a few days and I still look like a pig. Why? Why did I have to be made this way?
No wonder Logan and Roman treat me the way they do. They don't want to have to stare are my ugly body.

I heard the door open quietly. It was Patton holding a plate of fruit and some water.
"Hey kiddo. I know you've probably got a million things running through your mind right now but can I talk to you for a second?"
"Yea" I say quietly

Patton places the plate and water on my nightstand while I sit next to him on my bed.
"I know you don't want to hear this but you need to eat" Patton said calmly. I didn't want the "dad" y'all so I started to get up but he gently grabbed my wrist and made me sit back down. It wasn't a rough touch. It was warm and soft.

"I know how you feel" Patton started to speak again, "and I know that's the last thing you wanna hear. I know that Logan and Roman can manipulate you're mind and get under your skin but you are perfect"

"Why do they hate me" I gently said before breaking down.

Patton grabbed my body and had me laying on his chest. He was gently rubbing circles in my back. He was whispering things to me but I couldn't hear them over the thoughts in my brain.

You don't deserve to live
Logan and Roman are right to hate you
You should kill yourself
No one would care anyways

"I want the voices to stop" I sobbed into Patton's chest.
"I know honey. I know"

We stayed like that for a while. Patton eventually got me to eat a few bites of fruit. Giving me praise every bite. We talked and cuddled together. Not in a romantic way but more for comfort.

We were having a really nice conversation when Logan slammed the door open (can you slam a door open? Idk he just opened the door and it hit the wall)
"Patton leave"
"No. I'm not gonna let you hurt Virgil"
"Patton leave right now"
"And why should I? Just to let you hurt him more"
"Patton if you don't leave I'm going to tell him your secret" what the hell is Logan talking about? Patton doesn't keep anything from us.
"I- uh" Patton started to stammer

Then WHAM Logan punched Patton in the face. He had blood dripping down his nose as he ran out of the room. I should be mad at him for leaving me here but I get it. Logan can be really scary at times. And now was one of those times.

"What do you want Logan?" I managed to say.
"It's best if you don't talk" I was confused but he didn't give me much time to think as he closed the door and locked it.

He threw me on the bed and ties me to the bed post with ties he was carrying.

Guess who can't write detailed rape without having a panic attack? That's right me!! So this is what your gonna get

It hurt so bad. My whole body ached. No lube or mercy. He just didn't care about my tears or my screams. And to make it worse Remus and Janus were fighting. And I could here every word of it.

Stop trying to talk to Virgil you snake bitch
Virgil you're gonna make it through this it's gonna be okay
Don't you fucking ignore me
Hey. It's gonna be over eventually just think of things that make you happy
Bitch I will fucking make you a rape victim if you don't shut the fuck up
Just think of spider, black cats, or idk um...... Nightmare Before Christmas
Guess whose gonna have a black eye tonight
You don't scare me Remus so fuck off
If you wanna have that language I will cut your fucking tongue off
And that's my cue to go hide. Good luck Virgil

All of us sudden I felt the restraints on my arms and ankles loosen.

Aww the shows over already

"You tell anyone about this you're dead hear me?"
"Yes sir" I quietly say.
"Just so you know if you wanna disobey me I'll just show them what you're hiding." Logan said while walking out holding a purple adult sized pacifier.

Omg. Hahaha you really are a baby

Even if it's not sexual. Even if Patton will understand it's a coping mechanism.

Logan knows.
Remus knows.
I'm screwed

A/N: sorry I haven't posted in forever. I had no ideas what to do but I randomly got an idea in the middle of nowhere so here's the next chapter. I'll try to update more frequently but no promises. Anyways love ya my queers bye!!!!!💖💛💙