YOU'RE MY EVERYTHING ~ A RANDY STORY (FINISHED)

Chapter 10: Scared of Love

Rye povs

I'm so happy since Andy agreed. Well it's only been a few minutes, but still. Today's Saturday fortunately. We don't have to school. Andy has fallen back asleep, while I just watched him. I look like a creepy saying that I watch him, but I can't help. He's so beautiful.

His beautiful eyes, now closed, his cute nose, his perfect lips and his messy hair make my belly feel warm. I don't know if it's caused by butterflies, but I lose all control of myself when I'm with him.

This feeling, love, is amazing, but I'm hella scared. Scared that he's gonna get bored, scared that he's gonna say it's over, scared that he's gonna move on with someone better than me, scared that I'm gonna be left alone, again and forever. I'm scared and we're not even together.... yet.

I don't have a good experience with love. When I came out, my parents left the same night I told them so they don't have to confront me, "the monster" (A/N: I'm the least homophobic person in the world, I don't think that, it's what his parents said about him, not what I think xx) I'm not ashamed of being gay, I'm ashamed of having ashamed parents. Of course, my brothers left with them, leaving me completely alone in this kinda big appartment. Well, for one person, it is big.

I don't really have friends. Well I'm kinda popular, but I don't have a real connection with anyone. Most of them betrayed me, and I acted like I forgave them to at least not be lonely...

I may seem tough, but I'm not. I've got feelings, like everybody. I prefer the term "strong". Yeah I am. Especially since my last girlfriend, before I came out, cheated on me. I wasn't really in love with her, but I was hurt. I still am. Not really for my feelings, because I didn't have any for her, but knowing that I wasn't enough, even for her to go make love to another one, is sad. More than sad, torturing.

I don't know what the future is gonna give to Andy and I, but for the first time in my life, I've got faith in love.

Simply because of that pretty little blond who makes me feel things...

Hello people! So this chapter is more associated to Rye's past and his deep thoughts. I hope you enjoyed!

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