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Gerard's Diary

Monday 3 August

I used to think that i can't find love in the internet, turns out I am wrong. I met my internet boyfriend Frank in November and to be honest it was an on and off relationship. It was mostly because of me but Frank was very understanding of it and still takes me back.

Even though the relationship was on and off, it is the most loveliest thing that has ever happened in my life. Funny thing is we never really went through the friendship part, because i just randomly asked him to be my boyfriend and i was very surprised when he said yes.

Frank and i have been talking daily, we have been on phone calls and Facetime for the past 9 months. There were up and downs in the relationship. The first time i left Frank was for this guy who i thought was good for me it he really wasn't. It happened for three times but they all left in the end, and i couldn't help myself to go back to Frank.

Luckily, he still accepted me! we got back together in April, and its been going good, we sometimes fight over silly things like him forgetting me or him telling me to call later and not doing it. i get upset and i do cry but i know he doesn't mean it. Frank and I have discussed these things a couple of times now. He says sorry but i guess he forgets and does it again.

I love him so much but, I sometimes feel like I am not good enough for him. He said he loves me too and most of the time he shows it. And Frank if you are reading this I love you so much and I am not saying that i should be the most important person in your life, but am I not that important that you sometimes forget about me?

My friends keep telling me to just break up with him because we haven't really seen each other in the first place, but i was thinking of going to New Jersey to visit him this Thursday, just a one day trip to see how he is in real life.

A/n

This story was supposed to be about me and my boyfriend but we broke up.. but we talked for like 2 months until i found out that my best friend told him " i might have feelings for you" she knew i loved him.. damn i almost killed myself for him and she knew and still.. she still said what she said the worst part is that he told her " if you weren't her best friend i would go for you " it just broke my heart so much and tbh rn idk what to do i cut them both off my life.. i still miss talking to him but i guess its for the best..