Frozen Chemicals

Saying Goodbye

I get to the house before Ed does with the food, but only by minutes. Al and I don't even have enough time to set up Netflix to see how badly I can't destroy their list. Once we're all situated in our old spots I bite into my Chicken and realize how long it's been since I've had this and how much I missed it while we were in Cali. "So guys, what's up with the pond?" They look at each other and I can tell they think I'm going to be upset. "There's talk of draining it, but they have to pull out old land surveys to see who it belongs to." "Oh." "We thought you might react like that, but is that a sad or angry or a joyful oh?" "It's just a lot to take in all at once guys, I mean I almost died there. So do you know who owns it?" I can tell they both don't appreciate that I'm bringing that dark spot back up, but I don't care. Pretending it never happened would be foolish. As I sit in the silence, I ask again. "So who owns it guys? You two have to know." "We do. It's part of our land, so what do you want us to do Sig? Some surveyors found it because they're building a new playground on the edge of that property. If we don't have it drained they'll fence it off. If we do, they'll leave it open to us to fence or not." Jack or no Jack, that pond was my sanctuary for so long. I just don't have the heart to let them drain it. "Please leave it, and just have them fence it off guys." "Of course, it was up to you because it had the importance to you, not us." "Thanks, I appreciate it." We all sit in a comfortable silence for a little bit before catching each other up on the news of life.

Just because he messed up my emotions twice doesn't mean I've stayed completely dormant. Since I moved back, I've lived a normal life, made friends, have a boyfriend - Mikey. Since he lives close to "home base" I shoot him a text after to dinner to go for a walk. When he gets to our door, I say goodnight and thanks again to the guys. Mikey is special, we've been dating for a year now. The whole time since I've been back. He knows me better than anybody else, and I know him like the back of my hand. He knows I was hurt by some guy named Jack, but he doesn't know it's the immortal Jack Frost. But he helped me rebuild myself. He helped me turn myself back around into somebody who I wanted to be on the outside. We've grown together and I just hope to God I'll someday be able to help him in the way he has me. Help really isn't even the right word, more so saved is. When we get to the suicide bridge, he stops walking.

"Sig?" "Yeah?" "Ya know, we've been together for quite some time now, and I just have to say; I've never been this comfortable with anybody, or this in love." "I love you too Mikey, you saved me, and I'll never be able to pay you back." "Yes, you will. I even have something in mind." I raise my eyebrow and he grabs my left hand. "Now I know, this is really soon, but we're only going to be young for so long, but I don't want to wait longer than I have to. So, Sigourney. I promise to love you until the day I die. I can't ask you to be mine quite yet. Not until I have the money to be the kind of husband you deserve, but until then I want you to know I am yours and want you to be mine." He slips a ring on my finger, it's simple yet has an antique look to it. A thin band of aged gold that looks like a laurel. At the top is an open moon flower with one simple yellow topaz in the the very center. I'm stunned beyond words. "So what do you say Sig?" "Yes, Mikey, yes." He quickly embraces me causing me to squeal as he spins me around in the tightest hug I've ever experienced.  

Once he sets me down, I continue to hug him tighter than I've ever hugged anyone before and almost cause us to fall off the bridge. After we start walking back towards his house, though the woods a sudden gust of wind steals my scarf trailing into the woods. I know Jack is here, and he heard. It's time to settle the score.

"Mikey, I'll call you tomorrow, I'm going to go get my scarf but this might take awhile. Don't worry, I'll let you know when I get home. I love you" "I love you too." I kiss him and we go our separate ways. I don't need to look for my scarf, I know it'll be at the pond. I trek my way there, and when I get there, my bright red scarf is in the middle of the pure white scene of the pond, right where I fell through. It's almost a picture perfect scene once the light snowfall begins.

"Jack!"

Nothing, I'm greeted by silence.

"Whatever Jack, I thought this could be our proper goodbye. I'm happy now Jack, but I could've been happy with you too. You never came Jack! You left me! What was I supposed to do? Pine away until I die while you sit on your immortal ass and show up after I'm long gone? After I'm dead? I don't think so! So Goodbye Jack Frost. I really did love you, and I always will just not in the same way."

I hope he heard, I've been waiting for years to say that. I step onto the ice and start for my scarf. When I get to the middle, always the weakest point, I grab my scarf and re-wrap my neck in it's unneeded warmth. As I turn, the ice cracks, not in the middle but all around. Only he could be doing this.

"Fine Jack. I see how it is. Just take away my last shot of happiness, it's what I deserve for ever loving you." I look up to the sky at the bright moon, possibly the last thing I'll ever see. I can't help but think of how hurt Edward and Alphonse will be. They really did become the parents I needed them to be. I'm just glad they'll have one last really good memory of me, especially one so nostalgic. I smile slightly at the thought of Chinese Mondays. Of course I next think of Mikey. Oh Mikey, my lovely Michael. I'm so sorry it's going to end like this. With you not knowing, I know he'll blame himself and wonder why he never came with me. I throw my scarf away with my phone tied in it, this way they'll know.  Under my breath I whisper "I love you Mikey." and with that I fall through the ice, to my end.

THE END