Summary:
Jisoo just wanted to be someone's little girl, (And that someone just happened to be Rose.)
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Jisoo just wanted to be someone's little girl, by being someone's little girl, she honestly meant that she wanted to owned by someone. And god knew what weird fantasy she had in her head, but Jisoo just really, really wanted to be Rose's girl.
The thought of being owned by Rose just made the older girl's veins crawl. And Jisoo loved that feeling, yet she hated herself. Not to mention that Rose and her were dating over a year after she accidentally confessed to the Aussie.
But Jisoo still didn't know how to explain it and she didn't think that anyone would understand without judging her as a creep.
It was just a stupid desire, a twisted desire, it would go away, she told herself. Except it didn't go away. So Jisoo blamed it on her parents, it was not like her parents didn't love her, but they just never showed her any love when she was a child. Jisoo's parents may or may not sadly neglect her, so she was going to put all the blame to them. It was not her fault that she was so sick. So she could feel a little better, just a little, but still.
However, she kept staring at Rose when she was supposed to practise their new song, ddu-du ddu-du, like her members, and there was Rose. And Rose looked so fine.
And Jisoo didn't even know what was wrong with her, because the younger girl was the best girlfriend ever, even though Rose was the first girlfriend she had (but that was not the point here), like Rose was there for her whenever the older girl felt like a loser,
and Rose helped her with her dance moves,
and Rose held her when she was upset,
and Rose's gently hands, Rose's softly lips.
Yet Jisoo just wanted them to be rough, all of them. Jisoo hated to say that Rose was not enough because Rose was enough. But Jisoo needed more, she needed more than enough, and Rose was just enough.
After like the 10th time Jisoo got the wrong move, Jennie snapped, "Ya, Kim Jisoo, if you're here just to stare at our Rosie, and forget that we are actually coming back this month, then I'll personally end you before you get to get off."
Rose saw the panic in her girlfriend's eyes, and she found them cute.
But Rose would be lying if she said she didn't think that Jisoo was being weird the past few days, or the past few weeks, and Rose would be lying again if she said she didn't want to do that with Jisoo, yes, Rose wanted to have sex (or make love, if it sounded better) with the older one. Rose may be innocent but she was not an idiot, and Rose was not innocent at all, how can you be innocent when your girlfriend was Kim Jisoo?
Jisoo stuttered, "I-I just didn't g-get enough sleep last night, a-and I don't need to g-get off",
And Rose found herself being bitter when she heard Jisoo said she didn't need to get off, so that was the thing? Jisoo didn't want to do it with her?
"Then why you keep staring at Rose like you can't get enough of her huh? or you have been like sad and needy the past few hours? you know what? Let's take five, and you two gonna talk with each other to solve out whatever problem you have," said Jennie, pointing to Rose while glared at Jisoo, then grabbed Lisa's hand, heading out the dancing room.
Jisoo felt like her face was burning up when the younger girl just stared at her, and she didn't want to explain what happened, but she can't play pretend that everything was fine again because Rose spoke up.
