dazai x reader :DAZAI San

4

Warning: mature content :p
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5 years ago

" oiiii y/n where the fuck were you ?!"

The young girl replied shakily

" I was no where mother "

The elderly woman spat at the girl

"Fucking piece of shit how dare you lie like that"

A loud smack was heard as the girl fell down shaking,scared of  her own mother

*beep *beep

Y/n's pov :
I lazily half opened my eyes
"What a way to ruin my morning and nights dream"
I mumbled and soon after I saw the time my lazy ass instantly started blabbering

  "Ughhhh I don't wannaaa goo damn ittt"

I growled with my head stuffed inside the pillow. I hated it the mafia it was a joke yes a motherfucking joke, everyday would be a fiesta and it was starting to annoy the fuck out of me I even thought of quitting , though this thought was constant and always lingered.

Soon I had gotten ready and got back to work and boy don't even get me started on how annoying my partner was, chuuya nakahara a weird small man with a serious grudge against dazai osamu who was basically the hot shit of the mafia.
I always thought he was hot maybe had a crush on him for the longest but my heart wouldn't dare allow me to make any moves since i was scared of being hurt.

" oiiii y/n we have lots of killing to do so hurry up and get in here" chuuya yelled outside my house in his car i sighed knowing the day had begun.

Timeskip to after u were done being a badass

"Ahhh odasakuuuuu I really wanna leave the mafia it sucks like shi-

I was cut off by oda

" y/nnn the kids are here be a little more aware"

I nodded  and continued on my rants in a more appropriate manner.Me and odasaku had been friends for a long time now we apparently met at the lupin bar as I dropped by once, it was a clean conversation, but over the years we changed our spot to diner /orphanage since I loved the kids they were absolutely adorable and kind. I had never lived a lively childhood so I always took out time from work to give these kids some fun time and gifts , I was glad oda introduced me to such a pleasant thing since all I was ever known to was violence.

"Yo odasaku wanna go to lupin today I'm kinda craving some gin"
I grinned
He smiled back
"Sure y/n sure"
Then another voice interrupted
"Oh you two should get married I mean it's meant to be"
This made me turn red within seconds as I glanced in odas direction he too had the same reaction.
"Oh youuu come hereeee!"
I ran towards the brown haired kiddo and tickled him till he finally gave in with a sorry. It was a joyful moment a moment I would never forget.

We soon arrived at lupin around midnight, usually we have dazai or ango but today it was just me and odasaku having a drinking contest none of us knew how or when it started but it did and both of us were wasted , I mean I was I didn't know about odasaku though.
Luckily we reached my apartment safely with lots of crap coming out of my mouth which my god I hoped would be forgotten, as I unlocked the door I invited oda in. 
I don't excatly remember what happened or how it happened but there we were

Making out both of our tongues intertwined with each other and odasakus hand on both of my breast making me feel amazing.
He soon started taking his shirt off and mine aswell it was hot,the atmosphere was extremely hot. I didn't realise what I was doing was going to have consequences the ones which I didn't want to face but at that moment everything was a bliss.

"Y/n are you ready cause your about to go on a ride"
He whispered every so gently but at the same time so stern
"t-take m-me"
I moaned shamelessly as the skin slapping continued and odasaku rammed inside me.

The next morning when I woke up wrapped in strong arms my eyes widened bigger than ever I had realised what I had done shaking and having a panic attack I scream as I push odasaku aside
"Holy fuck holyfuck we did NOT JUST DO THAT, TELLL ME WE DID NOT DO IT"

Tears had already found their way 
Odasaku was wide awake and shocked
"Y-y/n I t-thought u wanted this DIDNT YOU"
He exclaimed
I was shaking unable to process it fully, Ifinally said after letting out a shaky breath
"Get out"
"Y-y/n please don't I love y-
" I SAID GET THE FUCK OUT WE ARE DONE"
Tears streamed down as I heard the man dishearted ,shuffling to get his clothes and rush out the apartment door banging it and there I sat crying uncontrollably. It wasn't like I hated him he was a friend a good one. Sex was something that ruined it ,not knowing what to do I cried myself to sleep.

After wasting the whole day sulking and just staring at the ceiling I decided to finally head back to work, chuuya obviously noticed my swollen eyes and dark circles

"Hey you okay?"
"Whatever idiot just give me the papers"
He just shrugged and did as commanded.
Soon afterwards I finally found a spot in the huge building where I could be alone and at peace since we didn't have any missions either I sighed and started silently sobbing until a annoying high pitched voice interrupted me

"Y/NNNNNN -CHANNNNNNNN WHYY ARE YOU CRYING"
"Leave me alone dazai"
I looked at him with a frown
"And why would a leave a pretty girl like you in distress"
He questioned while handing out a handkerchief ,  I looked at him and chuckled bitterly

" you know don't you"

" well you could say your not the only one sad at the moment y/n-chan so what actually happened first kiss or maybe you rejected-

" we had sex"

Silence a long disturbing silence was there until he finally spoke again

"Oh so you didn't want to do it then"

"I don't like him that way and we were drunk"

Dazais eyes went wide as I looked away from him in shame, he wrapped his arms around me which made me feel warm and boy did it comfort me

"Y/n-chan it's gonna be okay I promise"

I blushed a little while nodding one last tear dropping and god knows how long we hugged for cause for me it was the warmest  feeling ever and the memory lasted for eternity .

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Ayo pt2 of the past is in next chap which will be updated soon hopefully
Heheh. Cyaaa guys