dazai x reader :DAZAI San

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His words didn't make sense to me and by now I was sure it was the weed as I started giggling at him and singing a weird song, the more my mind tried to knock me out of it the more I became sillier until I started feeling dizzy and boom darkness invaded my eyes "I guess I should have slept" was the only thing I remembered me saying

Dazais pov :

     Y/n collapsed on me after singing&
Laughing like a maniac was I a joke to her jeezzz I grunted and went into her apartment bedroom  and holy shit the sight in-front of me was horrendous her room was absolutely trashed with a handful supply of weed on her bed and papers were literally everywhere I looked at her sadly ,why the hell, what the fuck happened to her was it odasaku or Mori who the fuck did this to her.

I shoved the supplies off the bed in anger as I laid her down my heart clenched at her state she had dark eye bags probably from lack of sleep her arm were bruised some not even bandaged and on top of everything my anger wasn't at a good point either.
I clenched my hands tightly and sighed letting go of  all this shock and decided to clean this mess.

Timeskippy after dazai was done playing maid

Y/n's POV :

   I woke up to a nice smell of delicious curry and that's when I realized I live alone what the fuck. I jerked up and saw my bedroom was spotless everything arranged and clean but I couldn't spot my supplies so I hurried to the living room seeing dazai osamuu putting down two plates on the table

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE!??"
"Woah woah calm down y/n-chan and have some lunch I promise to explain everything now get dressed shoo "

He shoved me back in my room I sighed panicked that he would have seen the supplies and must think I was a fucking druggie and even if I had some chance it would have been gone now, these thoughts became darker and darker until I quickly shrugged them off and came  out of the shower.

I sat down in-front of dazai scanning the amazingly cooked curry making my mouth water.

"Y/n why'd you do it"

Dazai cut me out of my thoughts of the delicious curry

I knew exactly what he meant , as I gripped the table and spoke

" I'm going through stuff s-so leave it"

Dazai sighed

" you worry me too god damn much and I need to fucking know why your like this y/n"

"I'll tell you once you tell me why you came here osamu"

" mori plans on killing you off because of your absences he seems to think you betrayed the mafia"

"W-what the-

"So please y/n runaway far away please I can't save you I'm sorry"

I thought for the very first time what if I do what if I started a new life somewhere nice somewhere pleasing somewhere where one didn't kill somewhere where love  didn't hurt so badly.

" then runaway with me osamu"

There it was again a deadly silence

"Look dazai I have lov-

He cut me off by crashing his lips on mine

His lips were so soft,
His lips were so warm,
oh how I wanted more and more of it
We pulled away and I felt the cold air on my lips again.

I looked at him with tears of happiness in my eyes
He looked at me with a burning passion.

I thought that was confession I really really did, that week we did everything we even planned to leave the terrible mafia. I was so happy so fucking happy his warm hugs, his hair,  his body, his lips ,his cute compliments everything ever single thing of this man I adored from the bottom of my heart

But then on Tuesday night the day we were supposed to begin our new lives together
Why didn't you show up dazai
Why dazai osamu why?
Was I that clingy to you? Was I just a toy? Was I just there to satisfy your needs ?Was I that ugly? Why dazai oh god why did you leave me there in rain
Why did you leave me!?!! Do you know how scary it was having a bunch of men with stronger abilities than mine chase after me?Do you have any fucking clue on how much I fucking adored you, guess not dazai you really didn't and now I fucking hate you so so much that if I were to meet you again I'd certainly blow your face off
I hate you osamu
I hate you so goddamn much you fucking asshole.
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Woah y/n daddy chill
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