Ally

Chapter 3

" No. This can't be happening" i say through sobs.," this is just a really bad nightmare."

" Ally, listen to me, i'm really sorry, but there's nothing we can do about your parents. You have two choices, spend forever crying and never be happy, or you can try to pick yourself up, maybe move somewhere else, and move on. You've still got a long life ahead of you so please remember, you only live once so make the best of it and do what you love." The lady, whose name i learned is Dr.Klein tells me.

I just sit there and continue crying. Anything that i thought was bad before i would gladly go through again instead of this. I pinch myself, I'm still here, this is real, what am i supposed to do? 

Right now i feel like going with option 1.

" Am i going to be adopted?"

" Yes Ally, you are going to be adopted. But i will make sure that whoever adopts you knows what happened and that they give you the best life possible."

I know that Dr.Klein is trying to make me feel better, but i still can't fully accept that this is really happening to me.

 My life seemed almost perfect, i was winning at shows,  i had lots of friends, i was ahead of my grade in school, and most importantly, i had a family that loved me. Like Dr. Klein said, i still have a long life ahead of me, but i am still going to take some time getting used to everything. 

As long as i don't let anyone get to close to me, i'll be fine.

 Dr. Klein says. " i will give you some time to process this information, see you in the morning Ally." 

Then she leaves.

As soon as she does, i let the tears that i was holding back go.

I cry for hours.

Then i remember what my mom told me when i was little and had scraped my knee,"Listen,Ally, crying isn't going to make it better, but some hot chocolate might just do the trick."

 I remember how she went inside and made hot chocolate and gave me a band aid.

 My mother, my sweet, kind, loving mother. Why did you leave me mom? Now i'm all alone. 

Blind, Broken and feeling Betrayed.

And then i go right back to crying, not caring about things that were my top priorities last week. Like whether or not someone liked me or wanted to be my friend, because now it doesn't matter, no one will like me anyway so why even try?

You know in some books the character will suddenly be whisked of by a prince or to a new land and everything will be perfect? 

Well right now, i'm the opposite, i went from having the best life i could have, to being a blind orphan in a matter of 24 hours.

What has happened to my life?

I slowly drift off to sleep, not realizing how tired i was until sleep comes.

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The poles come crashing down, so does Aspen, i fall off.

But no one is there.

My parents turn away from me and get in there car.

" no one wants a blind daughter, no one will want you, no one ever did." the wind seems to say.  

Then a big truck comes and smashes into my parents car. I here them scream. Then the door opens and blood comes out. Forever staining the concrete.

Then i can't see and i feel my breath slowing down, then almost stopping.

This is the end of the old Ally Johnsen, the girl who depended on others opinions and help to survive. The girl who hoped that someone liked her. The girl that trusted to easily, not knowing they could leave her with the blink of an eye.

The new Ally has come, the new Ally won't depend on anybody for anything and never gets to attached to anyone or anything.

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Even though i'm sleeping, i feel some sort of a wall being built inside of me, seeming to lock up all emotions and i know one thing, that wall ain't com'in down anytime soon.