Opposites attract

Ch. 14

Logan's POV
(Talking Key:
Patton is normal, Logan is bold, Roman is italic, Virgil is underline, and Pat's sister is all of them. any other people are bold and italic)

I just want this day to be over, I hope to be feeling "Normal" tomorrow.

I can't feel anything

I feel... empty

Whatever

It doesn't matter, It's better this way, Emotions cant get in the way.

I grab my backpack and leave the Room

walking to my homeroom, sitting down at the same desk. The two guys behind me start laughing. I get tapped on the shoulder

"So, didn't learn the first time did ya?"

This time I have my proper binder on, SO even if they tried

"apparently being Trans cant be changed in one day" I shrugged back at them

"You Little-" he was about to continue when Roman walked in. I assume he was a popular dude already because the two guys stopped, stood up and walked over to him

"whatup Roman" one said. Roman walked right past them and up to me

"Hey Lo" He sat down next to me. The guys were Not happy

"Hey Roman" The two guys walked over to us

"So Roman you'd rather talk to this LGBTLoser?"

"what's wrong with being LGBTQ?"

"It's gross, especially Gays" Roman was about to burst

He stood up, held out a hand

"well, Hello Jacob, Im Gay"

He almost puked

"wait what??? Your Gay?!??!" Roman Smiled triumphantly 

"Yup!"

"You are disgusting!" He walked back to his desk, grabbed his bag and walked to a different desk, the other one following his lead. But it seemed as if the other guy wanted to say something, but seemed too shy

Roman sat back down

"Hey Roman, do you know who the kid behind Jacob is?"

"Uh, I think Emile"

"hm..." I looked over at them again, and Emile just didn't seem happy

"why?" He looks over at me

"he just.. he seems unhappy" I sigh, It's not my place to say. Im not the best with emotions. 

"oh... I guess a bit"

Homeroom starts and the day goes by normal, I only have 1 class with Patton. And 1 with Roman, None with.. what was his name? V-Virgil?

Roman and I walk into the dorm. We see Virgil on the couch playing on his phone,.Roman silently humming to a Disney tune, while also reading a script for a play that has a Gay Prince in the kitchen, Virgil moved to his room and is probably listening to MCR and Me reading a space book in the living room. 

Then Patton walks in with a young girl who looks like him. 

"everyone! gert your butts to the living room"

"already am here," I say

"ok?" Roman puts the script down and walks over

"UGH I DONT WANNA"

"COME ON VIRGIL"

"FFFIIINNEEEE" he comes out and sits down

"Ok guys, I would like to introduce you to my little sister Julia" he steps out of the way and she waves a bit.

Everyone waves back, Roman stood up and hugged her, talking to her about Disney,

Virgil and I stayed on the couch. Patton motioned for us to come over. Virgil eventually did. Patton sat down next to me 

"Hey, are you ok?"

"hm? oh yes, I am Adequate." why is he worried about me?

"Logan im worried, ever since they came you haven't been the same"

"no need to worry, Just shock" I smiled at Him, hoping to get him off my back. I know im not looking or seeming "normal" right now but honestly, I don't know what Normal is anymore. 
IS my normal gonna be no Family Christmas? no get-togethers? no family reunions? 

I don't know what my normal is now. So it's better to be lifeless than to hurt 

"You just... seem lifeless"

"oh... I well...." I looked down, I wanted to tell him so badly, but I couldn't. He put his hand on mine,  I felt something jolt in me, but I can't let feelings get in the way so I just pulled my hand back. 

"Logan?"

I stood up and walked into my room... I cant deal with this right now... I need to be alone. 

I sit down at my desk, putting my hands on my head. Feeling nothing. 

hearing muffled voices from outside my room

I heard one thing clearly

"where is your Boyfriend?"   It was Pat's little sister, does... does he think of me like.. like that?

no

stop Logan

stop.

"OMG, I TOTALLY SHIP IT" this time it was Virgil. I do too

Logan STOP!

time passes, and I grab my work from today. we didn't get much due to it being the first day. but we still got a bit. 

after a while, I heard a knock on my door, "Lo?"

It was Patton

"Come in" he walks in

"what are you doing?"

"homework"

"but you missed Dinner"

"ill get it later" I can't deal with more loss

"lo please.."

"Thank you Patton" he spun around in his chair, facing at me, "but im ok right now"

"but... Lo..."

"Thank you"

"n-no problem" he walks out, a sad look on his face. I sigh

I can't do this

I cant 

what...

what am i feeling?

Grief

...

grief

why...

oh god why...

uhhhhhhhh

that's all for today

tomorrow ill be working on LOM 

so uh

bye :D