Realized

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝟻

𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 5- 𝑻𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑨𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒀𝒐𝒖

𝟸:𝟶𝟹 𝙿𝙼 𝚂𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚊𝚢 𝙰𝚏𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚗𝚘𝚘𝚗

I run to the bathroom throwing up after they tell me the news.

"We lost him."

I hold onto the toilet and gag trying to control my sob.

"Some patients just can't hold on during times like these."

I felt my stomach emptying out again.

"But luckily he was one of the ones that could, we got him back."

I cried my eyes out as I felt someone pull my hair back and rub my back and another person pull me into a hug. "I almost lost him...". I relax onto my two friends as they continue to console me.

"He's going to be fine Mel," Yuri said continuing to rub my back.

"Yeah, he's a fighter. Just have hope." Tammy adds on as her grip tightens on me.

I pull them into a group hug and thank them quietly "I love you guys."

"We love you too."

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𝟽:𝟺𝟶 𝙿𝙼 𝚂𝚊𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚍𝚊𝚢 𝙴𝚟𝚎𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐

I'm in the far corner of Ryan's room, staring absentmindedly at him.

"I almost lost you...again." I laugh bitterly, shaking my head. "It's been six days." I sigh.

"Six days since I felt like a piece of my soul was gone and I was sure I wasn't getting it back." The tears started to come again "You would think with you being alive it would've brought back that part of me." I mutter lowly, looking at the dull white floor.

"But it hasn't," I whisper harshly as I tightly close my eyes. I clasp my hands together as I begin to bounce my leg. I can't do this.

"And it's not going to." I get up as I walk closer to his bed, now in the middle of the room "Not until you're out of this hell hole and with the people you love surrounding you, welcoming you home. Not until you're with me." I croak out as I choke on a sob. "Your best friend, who can't walk this earth without you by her side. So, wake up." I finish as I fiercely wipe my tears off my face.

Please.
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𝟿:𝟶𝟽 𝙿𝙼 𝚂𝚊𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚍𝚊𝚢 𝙽𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝

I was up late finishing up paperwork to finalize this whole process up. The previous owner of the building I want for my office called me back earlier this week saying she'd decided to give me the building and in the morning im going to get the keys from her.

After Im done with everything I check the time and it's later than I thought it was. I need to go fill Rose's bowl. I quickly get and go into the dining area and poor some more food and water in its respected bowls. Once Im done I head back to my room. Well, try to since as soon as I take my first couple steps in that direction Rose barks.

I turn to look at her wondering what's wrong and she tilts her head at me and nudges her head to her bowl. I suddenly knew what she was trying to tell me. I grin a little and rub her head softly "Mommy's not hungry but thank you." I get up to walk away but this time she barks louder, and I turn around again "Baby I'm fine." I try to convince her. She starts to whine, and I think about why she would want me to eat so bad but then I remember that I haven't eaten anything really in the past two days, I've had water and an apple earlier today but other than that I haven't really had the appetite.